this is realy funny... haha.. there's a FHM mag circulating among the guys... and their reaction's really funny when other people find out about it.. haha... it's quite a laugh...

as for me.. reverse psychology works... i've told alpha that i allow him to buy if he wants... haha.. he prob only bought 1 month's issue... and that was the last of it.. haha.. =) i'm a pure genius.. haha... ok... maybe i'm a little nuts... but who cares... anyway... it's time for the lecturer who can't speak properly.. i think i should go now... and listen... and try either not to get too angry.. or to try not to laugh my head off... haha....

ok... this is how the story goes... was supposed to do a game (as in design one) over the past 2 weeks... we've been designing games for like..... 2 milleniums... (yar right.... more like.. never...) ok... so we try to do it... and... for once.. actually want to listen to the lecturer... and that's when the stupid lecturer/module leader had to take 1 week leave to sit for some exam.... so basically, we were left to ourselves to do the stupid project.. deadline was sunday at midnight... din hand in.. lecturer came back on monday n extended it to tuesday.. thing is... he din wanna tell us how to do anything... so yeah.. went home and struggled thru it... saved it... went to my uncle's house... and when i opened the file when i came back, everything went missing... sigh.. in times like this, i really really hate computers... they just suck... sigh.... yup... so i din hand in.... can't be bothered no more... bleahx..

it's da first lesson of the day.. and i'm already falling asleep... now i'm starting to think that i never really woke up.... bleahx... i need sleep!!! hmm... for updates... the good thing's that alpha might be out on wednesday night... so fun! haha.. ok.. i'm going mad again... haha... oh well... tata... got class...

and... just like this, the weekend's gone... and with that, alpha too... well, i guess i've more or less learnt how to adapt...

this weekend.. has been superb.... i got what i want for christmas!! haha... ok... maybe i still miss him even though i've juz seen him juz now.. but... i guess that's natural... rite??? it's been a really busy weekend... and it's been filled with a lot of both of our families... friday night was at my relative's house... and sat nite was at his relative's house... had quite a lot of fun... besides that... everyone in church is saying that's he's become very tan... (which is good...) haha.. can compete with me liao.. amazing what NS can do in juz 2 weeks eh? haha.. anyway, don't feel like talking much no more... tata...

1 more day! 1 more day! hahahahaha.. i'm a happy gal...

not at the moment actually... yeah... kind of stuck in school.... having a three hour break... with a test to study for and an assignment to hand up by midnight this sunday... yeah... and the worst part, no one knows where to study til for the test... as for the assignment, even better......... we know nuts how to do what we've gotta do... they basically didn't teach anything... and they expect us to hand in a nice lil game on sunday... i tell u.. they are nuts... <- they.. refering to the lecturers... esp. mine.. coz he's incharge of this module... haven't seen him this entire week coz he had some exams or something like that... so.. we ended up having 2 different lecturers this week.. and they din really do much either.... bleahx.. i so wanna complain... this juz sucks lor... it's da eve of christmas eve.. and i'm in school... i juz hate it... none of my other friends have the mood to study.. the guys... they're always playing games.. as for the gals, nope.. we're all not in the mood... sigh... poly life juz sucks larh.. well.. i guess that depends on how we look at it... yeah...

currently, i got no idea whether i should go for training later... firstly, i've got no cash.. secondly, i may not have the time to finish da cards n pressies for christmas... but on da other hand, we've got a few new members in the club.. and if i don't go for training, i'll never get to know them... maybe i should go.. and de-stress.. think it'll do me some good...

life's really boring... the christmas tree in the atrium simply sucks... it's so.... re-used.. and it's not decorated nicely either... bleahx... and now... of all times.. my ear itchy.. haha... so i guess u've figured long long time ago that i'm bored and i have absolutely no interest in doing other stuff besides criticizing other stuff... n da stupid emcee... or should i say radio DJ... in da background... so annoying... screa thru the mic... like... oh pls... give me a break... well.. i think i should stop here.. otherwise u'll juz end up having a lot to read.... argh.... i'm annoyed...

second lecture of da day.. second update... i HATE lecturers who can't speak properly... so so so so so annoying.. they're trying to teach.. but can't pronounce words... ah!!!!!!!!!!! i need music.. but unlike malays.... i dun wear a tudong.. cannot hide anything.... *grinz* haha.. aiyah... forget it larh.. so pointless... argh... annoyed...

it's a wednesday... i'm already in school.. and boy is da lecturer boring... gonna be a long day... but it's not like i have a choice rite?! hmm... anyway, din come to school yesterday... had an extra 3 over hours of sleep before getting kicked out of bed... yup...

besides that.... din speak to alpha yesterday.. he din call.. but oh well... it doesn't really matter... yup.. he did msg after all... haha... yup.. had piano last night... kenna drilled on one particular song... painfully slow process... heh... not my style of playing... but bo bian oso.. haha... after that... had a christmas party wif "POP" haha.. had quite a lot of fun... we wanted to play games to entertain ourselves.. but in da end we juz ended up talking da night away... was super crappy.. haha.. but nice larh... had a 10.30 curfew.. but broke it... din get home til about 11... no one to walk home wif me earlier.. haha.. it seemed as though i had to pull all of them away... but i guess it was good anyway... otherwise the police would probably have needed to make a trip down.. bad YF culture... haha.. at least it's more or less broken now coz we seldom have camps in church... yup.. that's about it larh.. got not much to say...

..2 more days..

it's been a week already.... since my last update... this past week has been more or less a roller coaster ride... yup... some downs... n some ups... yeah.. da downs were rather down.. and the ups... the total opposite.. anyway, he's been in for 10 days already... really miss him... but i'm surviving... thanks to all my feiends... and of course... God! yup.. anyway, gonna go for class now... not going go into further details.. tata...

today was ok i guess.. yesterday was ok too.. haha.. i had quite a lot of fun bowling actually... kind of a way to release stress... but was pretty tired.. to i got pretty hyper... haha.. think i freaked gerald aka club president out... haha... ok...

so.. update... school's started... homework and all... well.. yes and no.. haha.. but honestly, i'm still not in a study mood.. don't know whether i'll ever be.. haha.. that's just me i guess... today... counted as quite slack liao... school ended at 12... came home.. took a nap.. went for piano.. but guess what?! i'm still tired.. haha... yup...

as for alpha.... well, what can i say?!?!?!?! hmm.. how bout... i really miss him... but i guess i'm slowly getting use to the fact that he's not around... sigh... say all u want... but in case u all don't know me... i'm not as independent as i look.. i'm only human... yeah.. the happiest about 15-20 minutes of my day... when he calls... =) puts a smile on my face juz thinking bout it.. haha... i'm real glad that i've got him... love him a lot... (ok.. so this might sound.. hmm.. however u'd like to put it larh.. haha.. i dun care!) =)

nitez~

It's a sunday evening... i'm home and online already... yup...

yesterday's tournament was kind of crappy... no one was in da mood to bowl... well, i definately wasn't... would have chosen to be somewhere else actually.. nvm... hmm.. anyway, i won da ladies hi-game throphy.. for the simple fact that i was the only lady bowler there... and what's worst.... my average score was lower than usual... haha...

yup.. service was good anyway... yeah.. but was kind of falling asleep... yawned so so so much.. haha... after that, held AV ministry debrief coz jenn wasn't around... den went to give out pamphlets... some publicity for da purpose driven life thing... yupyup... had a good time at the cinema with nel... =) after abit of walking, came home..

i guess my weekend was ok... it was just different... i guess after 31 months, it's juz different not having alpha around... oh well... really looking forward to christmas... sure i miss him, but my life goes on anyway.. haha.. oh well... my smile will continue! dun worry... i'm not all that insecure without him... i've always been known for being independent... (i think... haha...)

a new day has come... sadly, it's DA day... i guess i'm holding up alright.. but i've now got a stupid headache becoz of my neighbour's cat... sure i love cat's but that cat has been crying for like.. almost a whole hour?!?!?! it's kind of crazy come to think bout it... anyway, my mind's been blown away... thinking too much bout him... like anyone else here, i prob won't... actually, i know i won't be seeing him til christmas morning... boy does that seem like a long time... the time with him today has flown by really quickly... and what's more, i've got a tournament which i dun really feel like playing... sigh... oh well... i need to go n rest now...

*Je t'aime*

It's me again... haha.. hey all u peeps... sorry bout the long long disappearing act... haha... was very very busy... and tired... but actually come to think about it, i'm always very busy... ok... now for an update on life...

FACT camp was superb.... yup.. had a lot of fun getting to know more people... yup... hmm... in general, i wish the camp never ended... life then was just superb... no worries.. no hassle... had tonnes of fun with my group... anyway, there are a few people that i'd like to thank for making the whole camp possible... firstly, God! yup.. nothing would be possible without him... moving on, we have our dearest camp comm... i think i won't list out the names.. i'd be going on forever... but yeah... thanks for all your hard work guys... really appreciate it... next on, we have my camp group 'Peter'... you guys were awesome.. though we were prob the quietest group... but hey... we had fun yeah? haha... ok... then after that, comes the rest of the camp... thanks for making everything a success... haha.. why i'm saying this?! it's becoz without any one of the things i've mentioned, the camp would have probably not happen or would be less fun that it was... haha... yup... =)

ok.. next thing that's been going on... well, i'm back to school... it kind of sucks to know that when everyone else is having holidays, u've gotta go back to school.. yeah.. quite depressing manz... yeah.. this sem, i've got like... 3 programming modules i think... out of which 2 are quite similar... they all say will get confused... haha... total for this sem, 7 modules... including the interdisciplinary ones... 2 of them... i dropped french... *sobz* i'd love to take it again.. but i just can't spare the time.. as it is, i'm already running around like a mad dog.. ok.. maybe not mad... how bout a young kitten?? it's not like i've got alot of energy.. it's just that i've got no choice.. but i'm not really complaining bout the hectic schedule i have.. otherwise, i'd be complaining about having nothing to do... i'd prefer to be so busy than to juz sit around and stone... sadly, i can't work either.. coz got no time... though i'd love the extra cash.. got so many things i gotta get.. for instance a knee guard to protect my knee from getting damaged.. a bowling ball... christmas pressies for special pple.. not that u're not special... but yeah.. i can't possibly give presents to all my hundreds of friends.. so pardon me if i don't k... yeah...

oh.. i forgot to add in... i went to trim my hair... and i highlighted it too... yeah... most people say it looks good... and most people has also been saying i've lost weight... i can't tell though.. to me, i look the same... i think i weigh the same too.. or at least the last time i tried... wasn't really effective though.. was wearing jeans which were wet at the bottom... (rainy days.. yuck...) and if i'm not mistaken, i just ate before weighing myself.. haha...

oh well.. that's about it... i really should go.. having practical.. finished liao.. but i think it's only polite to pay attention..

adieu