After the first day of a new week...

well... like i said, my week ended like shit... so... hoping for a better start, i gave up studying and went to bed...

in da morning... well, as usual, kind of got up late.. but was feeling much betta... but before i could even start the day properly, i rammed half of myself into da wall... (dun ask... basically, was still half asleep...) heh... at least i was home...

so... left the house, went to the bank to do some banking for my mommy... after that, met nell at BK to have brunch... that small period of time was still ok lar... headed to SB-HV after that to grab ourselves a latte each in hopes that it would cheer us up.. we ended up so disappointed... seriously.... that gal... sigh.. pulled us a bad shot.... den... on top of that, they never backflush... can see the grinds.. and the drink juz taste different... yuck...

went to school... intended to study... got disturbed.. and ended up juz looking through a few of my tutorials and practicals... literally juz LOOKING through... and before i knew it... heh... had to go for my paper... well..... the paper was surprisingly do-able... it kind of cheered me up... amazing how things that are supposed to put u down, actually cheer u up.. and things that suppose to cheer u up, actually put u down...

went straight to work after that... bumped into WJ on da way out of school.. juz said hi and bye.. cabbed down hoping to have a good shift there... day came crashing down just before i punched in... was rock bottom for quite awhile... and my smile seemed to have gone for a holiday at the bermuda triangle..it was a rather quiet evening.. so went to look for edwin at ML during my break... had quite a nice chat with him lar... long time nv see and talk to him... after that, decided to try to pick myself up at work... hmm... i would say that i more or less succeeded.. but... *shrugx* best left for other people to say lar..

was so tired by the time store closed... i was closing in slow motion... bad lar... but really can't help it.. heh.. closed half an hour late... sux lar.. but *shrugx* got nagged to death by my mom.. all almost death lar.. otherwise i wun be typing this...

den instead of going straight to bed, end up coming online to do all the CCA points shit... it's like.. CAN'T THE WORLD GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK??? it's the blardy exam week.. and here i am taking shifts on da day before my paper and all... and furthermore... everyone's going siao coz of the stress.... and me??? i've got to key in freaking cca points coz the deadline's today... -_-"

i've like.... been totally drained larh.. and... I GOT NO LIFE! heh... can't shop... haven't dressed up for ages... and all my pretty shoes are juz lying around... aiyah.. nvm larh.. but for the shift part, i volunteered... so.. DON'T blame my managers... can't bear to see them (or in particular, ari...) search high and low for partners coz SB got many poly people and now's about exam period... life's all about give and take isn't it?! haha... wadeva lar..

heh.. ok.. i end here coz that's da end of the day... thank u for reading this... think it's crap.. heh.. and... as for me, i think i'll be ok in time to come.. so... yeah... sigh....

tired... and... on the verge of breaking down...

not the perfect end to the week...

this is seriously the wrong time coz i've got a million one things to do... but... this is one of the few channels that i can rant and rave like no one's business... heh...

firstly, i'm damn freaking tired... haven't had a good sleep in a long time... got so many things on my mind... hmm.. besides that, it's exam week.... got a paper tmr and on wednesday... haven't really studied.. sure.. blame it on lack of discipline in my own life.. so be it lar.. i'll admit it anyway... but den... i do need time for myself... sigh... bad time management... argh.. so annoying... anyway, i've hardly studied or revised anything... haven't been paying much attention in school... and.... i can't exactly not work these few weeks coz everyone else is taking a break... the most idiotic thing is that i got a paper tmr.. and had to work todae... straight after da paper, gotta go do closing again... sigh.. i wanna rest.. i miss dressing up... i miss shopping... but den.. can't complain coz i dun wanna leave starbucks... heh.. wadeva lar.. dun feel like updating anymore... had quite a crap day todae lar.. and yeah.. u can see the tiredness on me already.. heh.. wadeva lar.. dun feel like saying anymore..

Gosh... this is bad....

haha.. ok.. maybe i'm going a lil too far... but yeah... i'm ALREADY missing my starbucks partners.... after being attached to 15 stores... and knowing other people from other stores i haven't been to..... yeah..... i'm gonna miss pulling shots... making messes... clearing messes... haha... and above all, miss all the partners... ah!!!!!!!!!! it's driving me insane!!!!! and on top of that, so many stores and their managers have asked me to stay larh... argh.... so tempting... haha.. ok.. am mad..

anyway, survived a 9+ over hr shift today... haha.. yay me! and i'm still super hyper... muz be mad somewhere.. haha... 4+ hrs at rc... and 5+ at ms... haha.. whee!!! ok.. nvm... hyped up...

time and tide waits for no man

ok.. so my title's aren't as fancy as others.. but who gives a shit...

anyway, found the time to blog surf today.. realised that i haven't done it in eons... it's more or less a wake up call.. coz i think i've got more church friends blog addresses than anyone elses...

yes.. i feel quite detached from church life at the moment.. detached from the people there too.. maybe it's because i dont't spend enough time there... but then again, maybe becoz everyone there's too busy doing their own thing as well... that i'm not so sure.. but sadly, i don't feel much of a connection...

i think.. in the past one or two years, quite a few people have gone overseas... some, supposed to be my really good friends.. but... we honestly never really kept in touch... ok.. it'll be unfair to say that.. i hardly have time.. or to be honest, never really bother... i guess.. to me, the distance makes a difference... but... i try not too...

since 2 over years ago, time's have changed so so so much.. it seemed like just yesterday when all of us in church spent so much time hanging out together... life that time was really considered care-free and easy going... i just can't stop mentioning that things have really changed a lot... everyone's moved on.. or at least they're trying too... everyone seems to have a new life... new schools.. new friends... new job... new clothes... house... shoes... bags... from the really significant things to the really insignificant ones... but... after taking the effort to do the things u do, how many people actually notice it?!?! i've kind of learnt... it's nice to just slow down once in awhile to think about the things people have done for you... hmm... strangely enough, there's seriously no ulterior motive for saying all this today.. just feel like it..

but yeah... i feel so distant from the people i use to be close to.. and feel so comfortable with the people i found strange last time.. haha.. life really is ironic... but... everything in life happens for a reason...

i think what i missed from last time was the hang out sessions i had sometimes a few time a week with leong... the nice free nights where i had absolutely nothing to do.... just to come home and slack in front of the tv.. or the computer for that matter...

another thing i missed is many many catch up sessions with many people... life's passing so fast now that there's so little time and so much to do.. or.. as some of my friends say.. bad time management.. and others say... doing too many unnecessary things...

i really don't know what people think of me now... and i'm not sure what to think of other people too... but what i do know is that you should have confidence in youself... i think.. that's the key for life in general...

hmm... clarence sent this survey to me... it's rather interesting... u get to learn bout what ur friends think of u.. and u get to see what ur other friends think about ur friend too..
haha... when u're free, go do it! =)


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thanks babes and hunks!

and fyi, i really thank God for all of you out there... i think i'm real lucky to have so many friends around... =)

being me...

hmm... so i've lived troo my normal always boring v'days... no big.. haha..

well... being me.... i've never eva thought that my life could be turned upside down by guys... it's complicating... and i don't think i should be posting it here... but oh well... heh...

let's just say, thing's don't always work out the way it seems... and you don't always get what u want... haha.. well, i've more or less learnt how to deal with it... so oh well...

for now, it's off to work!

Valentine's Day

haha.. it's here once again!!! hmm... and.. haha.. i don't have a date! yay me! go home, go online.. and slack..

hmm... for me, i think valentine's day shouldn't be that one day a year where people show their affection to another or something to that effect larh.. i think it should be everyday and not left for today... if u want to, it's ok larh... but yar... haha.. oh well... back to lessons.. tata!

Marathon...

juz finished my assignment... of course not only on da assignment.. but also on my own personal stuff.. haha... yup.. anyway, now it's off for my shower.. and off to school... yar.. haven't slept.... got a damn packed day... hope i can et through it... tata for now...

Quotes...

this post is definately not for those who wanna comment... and it's also not for those under 18...

guys...
"they complain about girls not liking them and when there is one RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEIR FUCKING EYES, they go "awww...but you're a sister to me"....bloody hell go ask the parents to make a sister lah <_<",

"men are bitches with penises",

"not only is life a bitch, it has puppies too"

so i'm quite anti-guy now... but yar... oh well...

Mid week...

The week's just been getting more and more... bleahx... don't know how to describe it.. there's so much going on around... so overwhelmed by everything... so tired... hmm... i find that i'm not my normal self lately... or should i say.. for quite some time... i know i'm not saying much... leaving everything hanging there... but yeah... don't quite wanna comment on it...

I'm just praying so hard that everything will work out the way it was planned... i'm not caring too much about myself... but.. i'm starting to think i should... haha... ok.. i'm starting to get myself as well as others complicated... oh well..

Returning...

Ok.. so i'm slowly returning to my blogging habit... reason being, it kind of relieves stress... and YES!!! i am stressed... heh.. nothing new...

anyway, apologies for the current blog skin... will design one when i eventually find the time... for now, i'm sitting here with an arrow stabbed straight thru my heart... but.. that doesn't matter.. coz i'm moving on... on top of that, i'm sitting on 2 assignments of which one is already overdue... i owe my club advisor stuff... i've gotta oversee more planning.. and when there's time to finally breathe, i've gotta start planning my last event... besides that, we've to finalize nxt yr's committee... and lots of stuff will have to be submitted to SDAR... exams are coming in a few weeks... and my attachment starts on the monday after exam week... that's my life..

BUT...

i think i shall juz keep my mouth shut coz that's not the worse things can get... and you seriously don't wanna know what i mean... things could be a lot worse... heh... so.. just gotta be strong and fight on...

And in times like this, i really really thank God for a close circle of friends... actually, many many friends... after all these yrs, i realise that u are who u want urself to be... for the people who keep thinking u cannot make it, u wun... just take a look around and see for urself.. if u dun pick urself up, no one will...

kill me if you like, but that's just my character... raised by my mom, it's obvious i become more like her.. so if you can't stand me being independant and free-spirited, den.. i got nothing to say...

that's it for now, going for another class...