since it's been such a mind blowing wk, took da first chance to go vent and let out all my emotions.. and what better way to do it than swimming.. (in a totally gorgeous new swimsuit that i bought for myself!) oh.. of course bad habits like impulse shopping for shoes came back too.. but that was just one pair that i couldn't say no to.. haha.. =) yes yes, i'm still a sucker when it comes to shoes.. and yes! i still love my heels very very much..
anyway, yes, back to swimming.. let's juz say that much has happened in the span of 1 wk that i was crazy enough to wanna do 20 laps in the olympic pool after not swimming for... hmm.. i don't know.. maybe a few yrs back?! since before i lost weight i think..
first, let me bitch about it.. haha.. public pools are the most ANNOYINGLY crowded place you can be at on a wkend.. it was crawling with people.. and not to mention some really slow people taking swimming lessons. i know everyone goes thru that stage.. but com'on! they really shouldn't use up every single portion of the pool.. especially when they're training for their medals.. gets annoying to have 3 lanes of kids bobbing up and down smack in the centre of the pool... couldn't swim in a straight line.. couldn't complete the lap without having to stop in fear of ramming into some struggling kid.. let's juz say it got on my nerves.. so after abot 5 laps in the olympic pool, we migrated our stuff and ourselves to the 0.9 m pool coz my dear nell's got a phobia of deep water.. (not that i've got a problem with her phobia..)
thing is, when i got into that pool, i think i had the look of total shock on my face.. i kept looking down to see if i was standing on some platform that was raised. i honestly couldn't believe that i was standing in a swimming pool with water only up to my waist.. -_-" i haven't been in that kind of a pool since before i learnt how to swim i think.. more than 12 years back already. just too used to olympic sized pools and diving pools. heh.. but anyway, since nell felt better there, and it wasn't as crowded, i juz thought wad the heck.. i'm guessing the length of the pool we ended up swimming was only about 25m... so i'm guessing i did about 10 laps...
not too bad i guess.. now i'm juz praying my thighs don't start hurting tmr..
goodnite world!
July 26, 2009
July 22, 2009
imagine if...
Imagine if we were still living in ancient chinese times....
I think i'd be chained within the compounds of my house.. or maybe even my bedroom... and everytime i wanna take a step out, i'd probably be accompanied by maybe a handful of bodyguards or something... hmm.. if chasity belts existed then, i'd probably have to wear one 24, 7 too...
besides that, i'd probably be match-maked to some high society guy.. the type that'd make my family proud but den again.. they prob wun give a shit about my feelings.. haha..
but juz da thought of it can make's me shudder... eww....
I think i'd be chained within the compounds of my house.. or maybe even my bedroom... and everytime i wanna take a step out, i'd probably be accompanied by maybe a handful of bodyguards or something... hmm.. if chasity belts existed then, i'd probably have to wear one 24, 7 too...
besides that, i'd probably be match-maked to some high society guy.. the type that'd make my family proud but den again.. they prob wun give a shit about my feelings.. haha..
but juz da thought of it can make's me shudder... eww....
July 15, 2009
The bitchy side of me..
as immature and naive as this may seem, it really gets on my nerves every once in awhile... so yes.. i'm bitching about it here.. like.. where else can i do it rite? haha...
sometimes, i think that some people really don't have the right to have their class 3 or 3A licenses.. even when driving a auto car, they can jerk the car as if they were in some unfamiliar manual car.. hmm.. maybe the poor fella juz caught me on a day where i feel more car sick than usual.. but ah well.. juz his luck.. on the bright side, i didn't tell him off straight in the face as much as i would have loved to.. but ya.. lately, from what i've seen it's not juz most ladies that drive like they can't drive, but i think there are enough men out there to match up to the number of bad women drivers. heh.
sometimes, i think that some people really don't have the right to have their class 3 or 3A licenses.. even when driving a auto car, they can jerk the car as if they were in some unfamiliar manual car.. hmm.. maybe the poor fella juz caught me on a day where i feel more car sick than usual.. but ah well.. juz his luck.. on the bright side, i didn't tell him off straight in the face as much as i would have loved to.. but ya.. lately, from what i've seen it's not juz most ladies that drive like they can't drive, but i think there are enough men out there to match up to the number of bad women drivers. heh.
July 14, 2009
who are YOU living life for?
You only get one chance at it.. and.. by right, it's entire yours to make or to break.. it has a habit of tossing you around.. bringing you sky high, and pulling you deep down.. you can never take wad's past back.. neither can you manipulate things to make them turn out exactly the way you want them to..
that's life in a nutshell ain't it?
i've always believed that no matter what you do, never regret anything. think this was mentioned a few posts back. my point for this post is not to repeat myself but more to make known what the meaning of life is for me. (i can't speak for the majority can i? hah! that'd be pure bias-ness)
anyway, at this point in life, i'm not sure of the specifics. but i've got a general idea of what i wanna achieve, where i wanna be, how long i'm intending to give myself. somethings like "dreamjob" are still quite blurry. but other than that, i'm quite sure i know that i need enough cash to take care of myself and my family. the existing one and the one i know i want in the future.. i know i wanna settle down.. hmm.. u get the pic?!
what i can say is i'm figuring things out step by step.. i may not know everything now, but i'm sure i'll be able to do it. i've never regretted anything.. well, not really la.. nothing that major or life-changing... and after the longest time, i'm sure my cousin will agree with me that i'm standing up for myself or at least i'm learning to instead of having my life being controlled like a puppet.
i guess in life, some people wanna go back in time to do things differently.. i juz wish people don't expect me to live out their dream life just becoz they missed out on their chance to do so.. can't they get the hint that i'm not them? as much as i love them to bits, and as much as i hate to admit it, they're saying and doing a lot of stuff coz to them, it's for my own good. but com'on... i am my own being. i was born with the exact things they were born with. a body, a spirit, a brain. hah! what makes them think they'd know me better? maybe from a third person's perspective, u do see things that the first person doesn't see. but still, can they really read thru my emotions? wish they would stop assuming. hope they'd stop being so fake. on top of being sincere and honest, why must they put other criterias that can actually be done without? i wanna live life for me. not for them. not their dream life. their dream education or their dream relationship.. sure.. i know i sound selfish don't i? but what happens at the end of the day when they pass on and i'm left? by that time, all my effort would have ended there and then. i'd have nothing left if i lived for them would i?!
sigh. i'm not angry per say, i'm just royally tired and frustrated with everything happening. I wish all this would juz stop. i'm honestly all out of ideas to try and make things better. ending up juz putting up with all the shit that gets thrown my way (close to a weekly basis. if i can really go thru one wk w/o any rubbish, it'd be a miracle in itself). thankfully enough, he's willing to pull thru all this crap with me.. still an incentive to keep going.
that's life in a nutshell ain't it?
i've always believed that no matter what you do, never regret anything. think this was mentioned a few posts back. my point for this post is not to repeat myself but more to make known what the meaning of life is for me. (i can't speak for the majority can i? hah! that'd be pure bias-ness)
anyway, at this point in life, i'm not sure of the specifics. but i've got a general idea of what i wanna achieve, where i wanna be, how long i'm intending to give myself. somethings like "dreamjob" are still quite blurry. but other than that, i'm quite sure i know that i need enough cash to take care of myself and my family. the existing one and the one i know i want in the future.. i know i wanna settle down.. hmm.. u get the pic?!
what i can say is i'm figuring things out step by step.. i may not know everything now, but i'm sure i'll be able to do it. i've never regretted anything.. well, not really la.. nothing that major or life-changing... and after the longest time, i'm sure my cousin will agree with me that i'm standing up for myself or at least i'm learning to instead of having my life being controlled like a puppet.
i guess in life, some people wanna go back in time to do things differently.. i juz wish people don't expect me to live out their dream life just becoz they missed out on their chance to do so.. can't they get the hint that i'm not them? as much as i love them to bits, and as much as i hate to admit it, they're saying and doing a lot of stuff coz to them, it's for my own good. but com'on... i am my own being. i was born with the exact things they were born with. a body, a spirit, a brain. hah! what makes them think they'd know me better? maybe from a third person's perspective, u do see things that the first person doesn't see. but still, can they really read thru my emotions? wish they would stop assuming. hope they'd stop being so fake. on top of being sincere and honest, why must they put other criterias that can actually be done without? i wanna live life for me. not for them. not their dream life. their dream education or their dream relationship.. sure.. i know i sound selfish don't i? but what happens at the end of the day when they pass on and i'm left? by that time, all my effort would have ended there and then. i'd have nothing left if i lived for them would i?!
sigh. i'm not angry per say, i'm just royally tired and frustrated with everything happening. I wish all this would juz stop. i'm honestly all out of ideas to try and make things better. ending up juz putting up with all the shit that gets thrown my way (close to a weekly basis. if i can really go thru one wk w/o any rubbish, it'd be a miracle in itself). thankfully enough, he's willing to pull thru all this crap with me.. still an incentive to keep going.
July 09, 2009
True to the name....
true to the name boobrain.. aka.. scatterbrain.. heh..
this morning.. woke up late for a lunch appt.. washed up. changed.. and left.. out of the house, i realised i forgot my watch and my earrings.. (essentials.. things i never leave home w/o.. haha..)
din have time to turn back.. so in a way, felt naked the whole afternoon...
i left the house this evening with my mom.. but we were heading in different directions.. while walking down da stairs, i realised i'd forgotten my phones.. so i told her to go ahead first.. and i went back to get it.. din waste too much time back home. juz picked it up and left again.. walked out to the bus stop.. flagged the bus.. dug for my wallet.. and realised i'd left that at home too.. so wad to do.. can't do without wallet.. so went back home to grab it... wasted so much time... heh.. lucky wasn't in a hurry..
nell cancelled.. so changed out of my jeans into my shorts.. and came down to my normal hangout- SB-TP. Came down.. chilled out awhile.. switched my laptop on.. and realised i forgot to bring my wireless modem.. heh.. lucky thing there's wireless@SG...
so yes.. that's been my scatterbrained day.. hah!
actually, glad i remembered all this happened. like my mom always tells me, if my head wasn't on my shoulders, i'd lose my head too!
this morning.. woke up late for a lunch appt.. washed up. changed.. and left.. out of the house, i realised i forgot my watch and my earrings.. (essentials.. things i never leave home w/o.. haha..)
din have time to turn back.. so in a way, felt naked the whole afternoon...
i left the house this evening with my mom.. but we were heading in different directions.. while walking down da stairs, i realised i'd forgotten my phones.. so i told her to go ahead first.. and i went back to get it.. din waste too much time back home. juz picked it up and left again.. walked out to the bus stop.. flagged the bus.. dug for my wallet.. and realised i'd left that at home too.. so wad to do.. can't do without wallet.. so went back home to grab it... wasted so much time... heh.. lucky wasn't in a hurry..
nell cancelled.. so changed out of my jeans into my shorts.. and came down to my normal hangout- SB-TP. Came down.. chilled out awhile.. switched my laptop on.. and realised i forgot to bring my wireless modem.. heh.. lucky thing there's wireless@SG...
so yes.. that's been my scatterbrained day.. hah!
actually, glad i remembered all this happened. like my mom always tells me, if my head wasn't on my shoulders, i'd lose my head too!