THE problem....

I think i figured out wad's da problem with life... or with mine anyway... All this pet talk about all my freinds not being good enough for me... about me not being allowed on holidays with friends.. oh.. did i mention girlfriends?? about me not being able to stay at certain friends houses... girls as well.. haven't even gotten over the gal part.. not intending to try asking about guys.. i can hardly stay over at chalets unless there's a chaperon.. i'm not even allowed to go on day shopping trips or chill out trips out of da country with friends.. can't stay out.. die die oso muz come home before 6 in the morning.. what's the difference anyway???

sigh... mom... MY MOM.... i love her to bits... BUT.. there has to be these few things that's a never ending argue between us... and... it's REALLY REALLY annoying... frustrating.. and everything else la...

ok.. in case u never knew, mom always had something to say about my friends.. ALL of them.. from those i'm really close too.. (yes yes.. she found somethings to comment on bout u people.. whether i told u or not, i don't know.. but whateva it is, i love u all to bits too yeah??) literally... ok.. sure she does care.. but it's like... my life... and even if she wants to shelter me.. how long can she do it for?? and.. what happens after she leaves or something like that?? learn the hard way?? or.. if she DOES continue sheltering me... how does she expect me to learn bout stuff?? am i gonna stay (in her words...) naive forever??

all along.. she's been worried about me getting hurt.. either by injuring myself.. or emotionally or physically hurt by people.. in particular.. guys... coz her life was... i guess... pretty messed up as well... she hardly approves of the people i go out with.. be it guy or gal.. and.. as for boyfriends.. or people i've been on a date with.. i think she's never approved a single one before.. not that i remember anyway..

i've been brought up... i'd say... in a very supportive environment.. in a way.. some might call spoilt.. but being brought up by just my mom.. i think she did a very good job playing the roles of both parents... and.. adding to that, while we used to stay with my uncle n auntie before in a rather big flat in bishan.. i was the only kid around coz he wasn't married yet.. therefore no kids.. i used to be spoilt rotten... i got everything i wanted... sooner or later anyway.. hmm.. yeah... everything... except a grand piano... that i'm still hoping and wishing for... everything's been.. perfect... yup.. pretty clothes... shoes... and more toys than any gal could ask for.. perfect is definately the word...

BUT.. REALITY CHECK!!!!!

i'm 19.. turning 20... time to join the real world... the world where no one or nothing's perfect.. it's definately not a fairy tale either... shit is almost always happening... ok.. there are times where u're on top of the world.. or.. at least on top of what you've gotta do.. but.. hey.. the fact is, SHIT HAPPENS!! everyone's flawed in one way or another.. that's what makes the world so an interesting place to live in.. everyone's unique... has their own charater.. morals.. attitude... upbringing.. preferences.. some of these people have less disirable characters and personalities than the others.. but nevertheless, still unique.. still special... no one's perfect... a person with a rather high education.. or EQ or IQ... might not be well mannered.. or.. might not have good etiquette.. and a person who's gentlemanly or who's really well mannered.. might not be well educated... bleahx.. but wad difference does it make really???

i've been brought up so that i can support myself.... support my expensive taste in stuff... and my insatiable appetite for nice and gorgeous things... haha.. sure it's expected that the guy should pay for dates.. or.. if we're talking about way in the future.. pay for utilities.. and everyday stuff... but.. that's still pretty much in da future.. too far to think... u think too far n u get a headache.. u don't think at all.. u got no idea where u're heading.. ironic ain't it?? ok.. wad i'm trying to say is that.. sure a guy must pay.. but... not all da time rite?? that's a lil too much i'd think... and so wad if he can satisfy u financially?? u're there all the time for him if he does.. coz u know he's ur walking atm.. but... he may not always be there to support u.. and knowing guys.. may not be able to tell when u need da support da most... sigh.. i know she doesn't want any guy to end off living off me... so ya.. sigh...

is he really that bad??
do perfect guys exist??
why's it that all my friends kind of approve and she's da only one who doesn't?? esp when most of them agreed with her that i should have wasted my time on the previous.. (sorry if i'm being blunt..)
haha.. will i stay single in da future n become a nun?? haha..

haha.. about the overseas stuff... haha.. i think she's more afraid that i'll be up to no good.. as in the whole.. sexual intimacy thing... den end up pregnant.. haha.. but with my girlfriends?!?! o_0 i wonder how that's possible.... and even so.. wad makes her think that if i really wanna be up to no good, i can't do it in s'pore?!?!? really makes u wonder doesn't it??

and if i say i wanna stay at chalets or over at a friend's place.. she'll go.. "why?? u don't have ur own home isid?? ur bed not comfortable enough arh??" it's like.. com'on... it's just for the sake of hanging out.. chilling out.. bitching... having fun... chatting... not like we're doing anything illegal... as for having friends over at my place... she's like... "they don't have a house??? but.. i guess it beats u going over to their place.." like.. HELLO! reality check.. i DON'T have my own room... and.. seriously.. my mom scares the shit out of most pple... doesn't she?!?!?!?! haha.. everyone's more or less scared shitless... and... not enough space la.. den becoz grand sleeps with da door open.. cannot make much noise.. where's the fun in that???

sigh.. at this rate.. even when i turn 21.. i'm not sure if i'll be able to take short trips with friends.. it's like.. so fun la... now i can only dream of that.. while hearing friends say they went to genting for a wkend.. or.. hk... or.. somewhere.. anywhere in m'sia... or.. bintan.. or batam.. or wadeva works la.. sounds so fun... such a nice time to enjoy with friends.. oh well... guess i gotta be content with wad i have for now...

dunno bout da r/s though..

Tertiary Fling 3 n everything else

last nite was fun... jam packed.. but.. at least i had a table... n we had a place to plonk ourselves last nite.. we had a small personal section for dancing coz of where we were.. haha.. so many familiar faces.. so many people... so crowded.. but.. so fun!!! haha... thank god i enjoyed last nite betta than TF2..

in class now.. juz completed project.. haven't slept since last nite... falling asleep.. tired... haha.. panda eyes.. but not visible... da wonders of make up.. haha.. and.. i still got a dinner to attend later.... like... dots..... hahahahahahahahaha....

whee!!!! oh well... catch ya soon!!

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it's a tues.. it's my longest day in school... not to mention one of da most boring as well.. but i guess it's just school.. as for me, i'm down with a bug and resting at home.. mc.. haha.. hopefully i get betta for thurs nite's party.. Tertiary Fling 3.. woohoo! it's gonna be fun..

there's this thing with da babies n me.. haha.. esp eileen.. in ICT.. she seems to know everybody.. with every turn she takes, she'll definately have someone to say hi or to catch up with.. haha.. and they say the same thing bout me... but.. ICT not my area.. da rest of da school is... =x haha.. ok la.. but to me, da number of people she bumps into still outnumbers da people i meet hands down.. haha.. oh well..

oh well.. da rest of my mind's a blank.. i'll fill u in when i eventually remember.. or.. have something else to tell ya.. haha..

Hello Bollywood!!!

This sem... hmm.. wad can i say... really feel like i've been thrown into a bollywood movie.. reason being... 3 of my 5 lecturers teaching da main IT modules are Indians... (not that i'm racist or anything... coz i love both nell, geets and kesh.. haha.. forgive me if i missed u out... brain not working...) they speak with their usual indian accent.. heh... understandable la.. but still............. argh...... haha...

adding to all that, i should also say that.. wad's with the govt?? why are they bringing in "genius-es" in their specific fields to come in to S'pore to teach?? specialists may be good at what they do.. but it doesn't necessarily mean that they an communicate their ideas to others in a good, clear and understandable way... really feel that they should be stricter on who they allow in to teach.. there's really no point if your lecturer so called "talks to him/herself" instead of making sure people understand wad they're talking about..

whether u choose to believe it or not, it's facts... people who are good in their field of work might not be able to teach.. and... some people who can communicate ideas (aka teach) properly.. might not be in the upper percentile of wad they do..

life's like that.. u might not know much from the start.. but when given the chance to teach others, u learn more than u actually will if u juz spend time studying by urself...

on the more personal side, can't wait to get out of school.. wanna go into business... like.. marketing.. PR.. events.. and stuff like that... wanna get out of IT.... heh...

Ghetto Fabulous @ Attica Too

Hey people..

GHETTO FABULOUS @ Attica Too

Attica presents the launch of weekly Thursday’s - GHETTO FABULOUS featuring the infamous duo DJ KoFlow and Emcee Garuda bringing their unique blend of Hip Hop and R&B, Crunk, Hyphy, Ragga, Dancehall, Funk and Reggaeton. It will be a night for all Hip Hop enthusiasts, from the GHETTO to the FABULOUS!

Venue: Attica Too
Date: Starting 9th Nov, Every Thursday 2006
Cover Charge: $12 (incl 1 drink) after 11pm
Whosgoing Complimentary Entry: 9pm – 11pm

Having only begun DJing in 2001, DJ KoFlow already has an impressive list of accolades to his name, including Singapore DMC Champion 2003 and Heineken Thirst Singapore 2005. Recognized for his distinctive ability and versatility, DJ KoFlow has played opening acts for international artists such as Missy Elliot and The Black Eyed Peas. An influencial figure on the local scene, his dedication hs earned him international gigs in Hong Kong, San Francisco and London.

~ Complimentary Entry By Invite Only ~"Free entry only through ticket Invitation from Ambassadors"

Those who want tix.. pls drop me comment at da end of this post... i'll add u to my list.. i've got 20 tix... come on pple!!

1) Me
2) Helmi
3) Ridzuwan
4) Bennett
5) Nell
6) Geets*
7) Mel*
8) Kay*
9) Kathleen*
10)Sabrina*
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* = tbc

yup.. do add on yeah? love ya!

The human mind n body.. heh..

very tricky... very indecisive... and also... very human.. haha...

it's amazing how some people's self centeredness can overall all kinds of proper thinking... heh... long story... dun really wanna talk about it... otherwise.. i might just have to kill u.. haha..

besides that.. it's also amazing how some people's dreams can be instantly smashed and then a moment later... ok.. it's more like.. a day later.. be put back together and haf the dream become a reality...

and it's also amazing how some are so tired that they have no more will power to fight for anything... heh... i'm being very vague aren't i?? haha.. i don't care... not gonna fill anyone in.. if u know wad's going on, u'll know.. if u don't know.. u don't need to know...

haha.. the whole bunch of stuff plus hormones... heh.. tired la... really really really really tired... stupid time of the month shit.. otherwise it won't be that bad... heh.. i just wanna take a break.. sit down... and do nothing over a good cuppa.. haha...