ok.. so i'm back after a relatively long time... can't help it... partially no mood, partially no time.. partially.. dunno wad to say.. or... sometimes, cannot say... sigh.. life gets frustrating sometimes.. okok.. who am i kidding... most of da time...
lately... there's just been so many things going on... people pressurizing other people... or... people not bothering when they're supposed to... people hurting people for no reason... people... just being people i guess...
sometimes, i just can't get why i can't stay out late without my mom and grandma kicking up a big fuss... do they really want me to wake up everyday, go to work, and come home straight after that to slack.. or in their terms... fall asleep in front of the tv?? sometimes, i think the government really puts too much into their head... sure bad things happen outside... but.. what they read.. and the chances of it actually happening??? wad are da odds? i know they're concerned.. but maybe.. they're taking it a lil too far?? it's like.. come on la... can't they trust any of my friends?!?! it's as if i'm all alone out there in the world... like... wad bullshit... i think... everyone reading this... hmm... i'm assuming u guys will do anything to the best of ur ability to keep me out of harm's way rite?? sigh... it's really frustrating...
and.. adding on, last time, i used to get.. it's ok.. i don't mind what u do in da future.. as long as u're happy.. now, it's... i really want you to get a uni degree after ur poly education... i'll do all it takes to send u to a varsity... haha.. sometimes, i think it's a real joke.. i got no freaking idea whether i can even make it into one of the overseas ones... talk about singapore... haha.. but.. the point is, nothing i say seems to matter anymore... and.. sad to say, i've kind of pulled back on telling my mom stuff... heard of selective listening, now, it's selective telling too.. heh.. not that i want to, things just seemed to have changed.. she thinks life's fine and dandy... sometimes, i really wonder what's going on in her head.. argh.. frustrating!!! it's sad... but.. i really give up.. it's juz so difficult to communicate sometimes...
da past wk.. been coming home late quite often... coz.. sometimes, gotta settle stuff... others, need to unwind and relax... why can't i come home u ask?!?! coz it simply isn't relaxing... wad's da point.. when i get nagged at almost all the time... and.. i've got no privacy... it's a small house.. i'm not complaining that the house is small.. but the only privacy i get around here is in the toilet.. if i lock da door, i'll have people banging on da door.. asking me to open up.. if i close it, i'll have people peeping in to see wad i'm up to... and... u wonder why i don't like coming home.. heh... can't choose if i wanna sleep outside with my laptop music playing... sigh...
nvm.. anyway, i so cannot go out with the club guys too often... spend a lot the last wk.. totally not cool.. heh..
there're like so many things i need... and.. the dumb thing is that everything breaks down at about da same time.. okok.. so.. it's not that many.. but i would like enough cash for an ipod nano... got lobang.. but.. still a bit short of cash... 500 bucks for attachment ain't much esp when u've gotta survive lunch in raffles place 5 days a wk.. heh... oh.. i remember wad else.. i needta get a new trolley bag for my bowling balls too.. da one i have gone liao.. can't balance properly.. one of the base thingys broke.. sad... and.. i realise i haven't bought a new ball in almost a yr... but.. for that, i'm not complaining yet coz i still got a lot of work to do on my release...
okok.. enough ranting... off to bed now.. nitez...
a new work wk begins...