okay... i am really really bored... or at least i think i am... coz....... it's not really normal for me.... of all people to be putting in 2 entries on the same night... well, it's quite late now... as u can see from the time this was posted...

everyone... or at least most of the people i talk to are offline... and.... my brain has nothing to do but wander freely... wonder why.... but was suddenly thinking of getting... or should i say recieving a bouquet of roses.. as in.... a nicely done up one... haha... i really should snap out of it shouldn't i?! *bish* haha... cannot covet... ah!!!!!!!! anywae, before my brain travels too far, tata... gotta go work tmr... and therefore, i should go sleep... haha....

chao..

it's monday again............ bleahx....

well, good news to all those i hang out with... i told da superviser i won't be working there no more.. (in short, i quit!) haha.. =) so proud of myself... haha.. but it won't be til next wk... haha.. so, we can have fun for da time being... can go sakae with esta n whoeva else who wants to come along.. haha... get my free wkends again! yay! movies! pool! love it! haha..

yup.. another reason for quiting is............ i juz don't know why i should stay if i get insulted for no reason everyweek.... favouritism manz... the bloody cook(her husband) sit around doing nothing, she nv sae anything... the other 2 aunties we work with laugh and slack so obviously oso never say anything... and as for us, we get told of for the slightest thing... so damn pissed...

*sigh* i betta not go on.. otherwise all the vulgarities will start coming out...

it's late... i'm tired... and i don't feel like writing much...
so anyway, here's a thought that u guys can think about... and maybe tag it!
came across it while watching tv....

what on earth is the world becomming? why are so many tv stars cross-dressing? shouldn't they be teaching good morals instead of these farnie stuff... it's just not right...

past 2 days.... haha.. quite eventful i must say...

monday started off as usual.... blue.... had to go to work... sianz... haha.. anywae, was looking forward to tmr... (which is tuesday.. or in other words, today!) coz I WAS supposed to be off... but that's another story...

the lunch time crowd... well, hectic! weijin and alicia weren't in yet... so that left yanni, aunty bibi and me to the whole crowd.. anywae, while we were busy serving, this group of 7 people walked in... they were so impatient... like..... couldn't they see we were attending to other people??? that we weren't free to take their order? it's not like we were sitting around doing nothing.. we were getting drinks and all.. afterawhile, they just walked out... haha.. my heart was thinking... "good for them..." it's like, who would like serving such impatient people?? haha...

knocked of at 2 coz had to go for my piano lesson... my father picked me up.. the so called happy meeting was cut short when he told me he was about to sell the SICC membership.... i was furious! what made it worst.... he told me not to tell my mom... coz he knew she would get mad... hah... doesn't he know i'm my mother's daughter?? that we'd have roughly the same temperament? gawd.... and that practically spoilt my mood... couldn't even play the piano properly.....

in da evening, while going for a reunion at my relative's place, guess what??? stupid supervisor told yanni to tell me that i had to work today... drats...why spoil my mood?!

well, but i guess that was taken care of when we went shopping after work.. hehe... so nice... spent bout 50 plus i think.. haha.. then.. changed my hp.... then went to chinatown... (yeah.. crazy... why push rite? oh well... haha...)
and here i am.... at my com... busily typing the nite away.. haha...

Sunday..... used to be a nice word.... a word that would often mean time to rest.. and play... the first sunday in ages... i can't do what i like... be where i want... or be with the people i normally hang out with... *sobz*

oh well, i hope this will only be temporary... coz i really want sundays for myself... sure earning money is nice.. and the more money i have, i guess i can then enjoy more stuff... but money's not the only thing in my mind... actually, it's the least of my worries... their shifts are so long.. they can kill.. when they're busy, it's really hectic... when we're free.... well, we really get bored to death... given a chance, i want out! it's so.............. not me! i want my freedom... and my friends of course.. well, that's that.......

not in a very good mood now... what's making it worst is that my grandmother's pissing me off..... it's what my mom calls a "new year's high"... can't she just shut up and leave me alone?! *sigh*

and furthermore.... who on earth can forget valentine's day?! especially someone who's attached.... argh.... maybe that's why i got pissed... of all people, guess who didn't know!? what's worst is that i think i did mention that it falls on a saturday... oh gawd..... i so wanna slap him....... hmm... is it just me?! or are all guys in one way or another self-centered?! well, maybe there is the one in a million that would go all out for others besides himself.. talking about it makes my blood boil....

is there nothing good left on the earth anymore??

wanted to update this yesterdae... but yesterday, got back only in time for charmed and CSI... my TV nite.. haha... =)

wellz, been working the pass few days... been pretty tiring... but funny thing is that the crowd has been getting less and less everyday.. haha.. maybe it's got something to do with alica, yanni, weijin and i being there.. haha.. hope not though..

yeah... anywae, yesterday as i was on my way to work, well, i guess it was a reminder from God or something manz... haha... but i realise how lucky i am.. well, troo i may not be too well off ($$ i mean.. although i know some of u will disagree...) but i really thank God that i have a fully abled body... what i mean here is that... i can see, and i don't have any disabilities or sicknesses... yeah.. coz i was on da MRT... suddenly, on some distance away on my right, this man... i would think early 20's... suddenly collasped on the floor... well, he seemed pretty able.. but i think it's some disease or something... what got me quite upset was the way the people standing and sitting around reacted.. while others juz stood there staring, there were some who actually moved away... this type of situation actually shows how caring singaporean's are towards their own people...

yup... then on my left side, there was a blind man... when he was getting of, people couldn't even bother to show him to the door.. he was struggling to find his way around... when finally after some time, a lady was nice enough to bring him out... *sigh* so sad..

anyway, i should go get some rest... at the same time, do the cell directory and all.. haha... signing out...

today was the first day of work.. just one word to discribe it... SEH! haha.. legs feel like shite now.. haha.. oh well... all part and parcel of life i guess...

well, at least lunch is provided and there are afew hours in between lunch and dinner where there's almost no one..

haha.. and after all, clarence and justin came when we were free... so at least we had some laughs... =)

haha... oh well.... gonna play some games and going to knock out..

Today... was a nice day except that i was kicked out of bed... to go for lunch... haha... but yeah.. since it was lunch... u should know the time.. and i guess.. it was time to get out of bed.. haha..

went for my piano lesson after that... went quite well... just that i've got about 7 pieces and 24 scales to practice... my fingers are gonna be super strong after that manz.... including the few hours of typing everynite.. haha..

the rest of the day was pretty normal.. haha.. went shopping in da evening! haha.. novena area... nothing much larh... oh yeah.. while shopping, met mark at trumpet praise.. haha..

anyway, starting work tmr... what a bummer... and it practically takes up the whole day... *sobz* no more fun fun fun under the sun... oh well, at least i don't intend to stay at my current job for too long.. so... *phew* otherwise i'd die... no sunday movies!! no anyday movies! *sobz* haha.. oh well.... and..... $40 a day... not bad larh.. but 8 hrs... haha... i'm gonna die!!! haha.. heck larh...

today.. was another ok dae... well, at least when i lead worship for childrens' church, there was some sort of response... haha...

had camp comm meeting during lunch... that was tonnes of fun..... haha... with alan, mark and jo.p around, got side-tracked quite abit... from dorm i/c... can go to berlicia! haha... jo.p's genius.. haha... anywae, it was fun larh... but couldn't help but feel tired... didn't really get lots of rest lately.. my nites have been.... umm... think u'd call it disturbed...

anywae, after that, went to watch "mona lisa smile" with euge, juz, bryan and alpha.... nice show... haha... and wad do ya noe... we guessed wrongly... euge and i thot that alpha and bryan would be the ones who'd fall asleep the quickest during the show... but..... (i hate to admit it) we were wrong... justin!!!!!! haha.......... how could u prove us wrong?!?!?!?! haha...

anywae... that was about it.... yup.... suppose to start work tmr... but oh well, thank God.. it only starts on tuesday..

Today is friday.... haha... and for once, it's not my favourite day... coz there's no school... otherwise, it will be my favourite dae..

but da day was quite good i guess...
bummed around all afternoon... afterwhich, i went to alpha's house to get the chord sheets ready for worship... (my printers down..) who knows... his printer had no ink!!! well, after that, went down to victoria concert/memorial hall to pick up my certificate and to enquire about vocal exams.. or should i say.... "singing" exams!haha... if u don't get it, then too bad... but i think esta and justin get it..

then..... worship practice... haha.. had a few good laughs...... always happens when i practice with my worship band... da bad part was da totally screw up part... miss communication ah!!! *sigh* but anywae, thank God we fixed that problem.. oh well, anywae, thank God again... coz that won't happen anymore once i get da cupboard keys..*phew* haha.. oh yeah.... it's real difficult to sing with a blocked nose... sound way way way too nasal.. M2M... haha.. nono.. Britney Spears!!! EEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............. haha.. anywae, hope my nose clears by sunday... otherwise, i don't know what to think... haha...

oh well, that's all i have for today... oh yeah.... just one last thing... this goes out to all the guys who intend to get some girl flowers for valentine's dae.. get it soon!!!! before the prices go sky high... buy now and ask them to get it ready by that day! beat the crowd!! haha.. oh well, chaoz...

today......... was............. well, i guess an okay dae..
haha.. which dae isn't?!

went to bed real freaked out... woke up even more freaked out... had a feeling something bad would happen.. so, anywae, woke up, and....... yeah.. decided to try to get things right.. and.. thank God..... i did...

well, from that i realised that... it would be very very difficult if i were to break up with alphonsus... ok..... there i go talking bout him again.... haha.. but, i'm gonna stop here for this topic.... u go link the 2 paragraphs up and figure out what happened... haha.. i'll leave it to u to think... if u really wanna noe, come bug me urself.. haha... what a thing to sae..

anywae, went for an interview todae... at this makan place in park mall.... got hired instantly... coz.... they were short handed... and.. not only that, weijin, yenni and alicia also got hired as well.. yay! can work together..

but anywae, for those i normally hang out with as and when i'm free..... i'll sae sorry to u guys in advance... coz, i'll be working sundays too... so.. i'm not quite sure how i can find the time to hang out with u guys... adding to that, i know some of u guys will sae i'm nuts coz by doing this, i'm probably gonna tear my relationship up into a worst mess than it already is now... by getting this job... coz.... apparently, i won't have that much time to squeeze in for.. u noe who larh... and i won't be the one always having to sacrifice time and everything else i sacrifice... coz, that just won't be possible...

yup... haven't told him yet... don't know how to actually... yeah.. sure i know he's already quite torn between his other commitments and me... (on da other hand, i'm not so sure...let's just assume... shall we?) and i'm juz making myself busier... let's just put it that way... i won't even know when i'll be free... the good part, i'm only working 5 hours a dae... the bad part... i may be working the later shift that means, i'll be busy when everyone finishes school... and i'll finish..... like..... when........... it's late.... haha... not helping very much is it?!

haha.. enuff about that too.... while talking to da gals todae.. and i'm talking about the other 3 who got da job for me... weijin told us bout her cousin and her husband... and about how he proposed to her... it's like WOW!!! u mean such people still exist in the world now?! i'm surprised... very surprised... haha... it's jan.... and before i know it, valentine's dae will be here... again... i seriously won't be surprised if all i get is a glimspe of him on that dae.. oh well, i guess that's life... isn't it?! lalala...

oh well, i'll be signing of now... gotta go type out my worship songs...
ladidar.. <- too much time spent with esta... haha...

It's the second day of a boring week... and at the looks of it, it's gonna be a few boring months lined up... well, not if i can do something about it.. thing is, everyone's in school, and i'm not... both my sheepies are in school.. can't really contact them... or talk to them.. or ask them to go out... and everyone else seems to be in school.. haha.. oh well...

today.... i guess it was okay... except for my stupid stomach.... haha.. of all days to hurt.. anywae, watched mona lisa smile with my cousin chloe and my mom.. good show i must sae... haha.. it's interesting.. it's about this lady who goes to this school to teach... wanting to make a difference... well, the good news is, she did make a difference... haha... that's all i'm leaking out.. if u're interested, go watch it.. quite arty i must sae...

lala... guess i'll update this some other time... gotta go think of this sundae's worship songs... haha.. seeya

and for those who are in school, happy studying... haha..

YAY!!! Genesis 2004 is finally over!!!!! (ok... it was fun... but the planning was MONSTER!!)

ok.... so maybe i'm just really tired.... and exausted... what can i sae? haha.. but anywae, it was good larh... haha.. nothing much to sae...

hmm.... i seem to have all my events lined up for me... one after another... *sigh* hope i can last manz.. eva since O's were over, there was YF camp, Missions trip, Christmas, Genesis, then... gotta come up for what we're gonna do at vocal training... besides kill myself... i have a feeling that would be a confirmed item on da schedule.. yeah... and the next youth aflame next month.. and the month after that.. at da same time, got admin stuff for da next camp... haha.. well, at least it keeps me busy..

anywae, i'm so happy.. can start my piano lessons again! yay! after like.... 3 months.. think i stopped in september.. haha.. can't wait.. that reminds me... gotta go pick up my cert too.. and get the vocal exam syllabus... haha

anywae, chao.. busy... haha

*sigh* i've got this really funny feeling... it's just so weird that i've got no school... after 10 years... haha.. i guess that's why....

anywae, school's started.... like duh... no one's online on a fridae afternoon.. *sigh* is it just me?! or are all my fwens.. (those i normally hang out with.. including alpha) in school?!?!?! gosh.. i gotta get a job.. otherwise i'll be bored to tears...

besides that, i'll revert back to being kind of single.. well, the feeling's there.. damn his school... *sigh* they're in the same classes as last year... meaning, he'll finish school earliest at 4.. also meaning, he'll be dead tired by the time he finishes... and that will leave... like... what?! saturdae and sundae for me?! hmm... besides school, he's now a CGL... as everyone knows.. well, congrats.. i think it was one of his dreams.. and his A's.... Gawd...

so many commitments... so little time... well, he says he'll keep me in mind.. but i really don't know.. last year, he wasn't a CGL... and i already felt kind of neglected... only saw him in church kind of thing.. now that he's a CGL, there's cell leaders meeting, and discipleship... blah blah... gosh... being in a relationship means having to put in some time rite?!?!?! i'm not asking too much am i?

*sigh* i really don't know... i'm just crossing my fingers and hoping for everything to turn out good...

A new year... A new beggining...

It's da first of January.. 2004... gosh... gotta get used to writing that date... haha.. anywae, as i said, it's new years dae.. and i'm sitting in front of my computer and typing this out.... haha... some kind of news years dae.. i'm making it sound like i'm not going out.. but will be out later larh.. haha..

Well, looking back on the year 2003, i think...... there were really lots and lots of ups and downs... making it worst, they were kind of the extremes... the ups were like... getting a distinction for my piano exam... and a gold for da choir... the downs, well, don't wanna talk about it no more..

Nevertheless, i really thank God for bringing me thru that year... it was really a tough one.. thank God for keeping me safe too.. another thing... really thank God for all da friends He's given me.. coz they've been a real blessing to me! there's juz too many things to thank God for.. even things as simple as keeping me alive... =)

anywae, i think for this year, my goals would probably be....
1. Continue drawing close to God.. (very impt)
2. Spend more time with my family.. be a betta daughter to my mom.. a betta
niece to my aunt and uncle.. and a betta granddaughter to my "popo"
3. Be a better girlfriend.. coz.. i think i was quite monster to alpha..
(sometimes.. anywae.. but some of u might think otherwise)
4. Continue to be a good fwen and a good listener.. =)

yup... that's about it.. haha... now, comes da going out part! yay! chao.. take care everyone... and have a God blessed new year!