today.... today.... ah... how i wish it juz didn't happen.
thankfully. i know for a fact that not many people read my blog anymore. if you do, pls drop me a comment.. haha.
anyway, today.....
jumped out of bed thinking i was late for a lunch appointment only to find out that it's the wrong day. called my other appointment only to find it cancelled as well. come down to starbucks thinking maybe i could do dinner with ben or run around if he wasn't finishing that soon. therefore. i didn't bring my laptop adaptor. i didn't bring my storybook. plus i left the cash that mom gave me under my bed... handphone running low...
find out that his ex is engaged... happy for her. happy for my ex too coz he's already married. but the feeling's juz bad....
oh well...
November 19, 2010
The November Update
Ok. so.. half of november has come and gone in a flash. so let's see wad's been happening...
i'll spare you all the details. but here's how it goes...
1) flunked one module straight up coz of a 40% assignment that went ungraded.
2) one more paper to go coz i deferred it.
3) 80-90% chance of taking a gap year next yr from my studies.
4) finances are in the dumps.
5) mom seems to think that i've got no brains at all and that i'll spend all my entire pay wasting my life away instead of getting it together. -_-" that's extremely disappointing.
6) people who are supposed to reply my emails have totally disappeared from the surface of the earth.
7) work seems to be at a standstill becoz incompetent idiots are preventing work from being done.
on a brighter note,
8) christmas tags will be out on sale hopefully end of next wk. =)
9) i'm still alive and breathing...
heh...
wad a day...
i'll spare you all the details. but here's how it goes...
1) flunked one module straight up coz of a 40% assignment that went ungraded.
2) one more paper to go coz i deferred it.
3) 80-90% chance of taking a gap year next yr from my studies.
4) finances are in the dumps.
5) mom seems to think that i've got no brains at all and that i'll spend all my entire pay wasting my life away instead of getting it together. -_-" that's extremely disappointing.
6) people who are supposed to reply my emails have totally disappeared from the surface of the earth.
7) work seems to be at a standstill becoz incompetent idiots are preventing work from being done.
on a brighter note,
8) christmas tags will be out on sale hopefully end of next wk. =)
9) i'm still alive and breathing...
heh...
wad a day...
October 06, 2010
Blogging.......
Was just reading through some of my friends blogs. Made me realise that this is still a place I can at any time turn to for some ranting.
For as long as I can remember, I've been getting lost. Lost in a world that strangely enough, I wouldn't even call my own. I don't quite know when or how it started turning out this way. It just did.
I've lost the person I used to be. The old me seems far and distant. Like a memory of sorts. The new me... sadly.. feels like just am empty shell.
Of course this is not in reference to the way I treat friends. More of the way I treat those who are probably too close to me. and.. myself included.
People normally turn out for the better. I seem to be heading in the totally opposite direction. Somehow, I can't seem to get myself out. Am I really not trying? or am i not trying hard enough?
For as long as I can remember, I've been getting lost. Lost in a world that strangely enough, I wouldn't even call my own. I don't quite know when or how it started turning out this way. It just did.
I've lost the person I used to be. The old me seems far and distant. Like a memory of sorts. The new me... sadly.. feels like just am empty shell.
Of course this is not in reference to the way I treat friends. More of the way I treat those who are probably too close to me. and.. myself included.
People normally turn out for the better. I seem to be heading in the totally opposite direction. Somehow, I can't seem to get myself out. Am I really not trying? or am i not trying hard enough?
June 14, 2010
Mid 2010
It's been more than half a year since my last post. and as usual, i'm back to rant about everything...
you know, the thing about life is that as you grow older, the shit juz comes smacking you on the face a whole lot more than it was in the past. so far, there's the studies that seem never ending.. on top of that, there are opportunities that i've taken a chance on.. including bloop and indulgence.
even after i've supposedly turned 21.. coming 2 years already. somehow, i feel that the freedom i've gained does not match up to amount of shit that's come in along that way that requires attention.
then again, i may just be whining.
heh. life.
you know, the thing about life is that as you grow older, the shit juz comes smacking you on the face a whole lot more than it was in the past. so far, there's the studies that seem never ending.. on top of that, there are opportunities that i've taken a chance on.. including bloop and indulgence.
even after i've supposedly turned 21.. coming 2 years already. somehow, i feel that the freedom i've gained does not match up to amount of shit that's come in along that way that requires attention.
then again, i may just be whining.
heh. life.