it's me... finally brought myself here to blog again.. well... don't know if u all know.. but yeah.. haven't been in the best of moods... i probably lack the R&R i really need... and yeah.. all i can say is thanks dear.. coz i guess i'm most relaxed when with him.. but then.. due to everything else.. i kind of have a very short attention span.. and tolerance level.. so yar.. i'm not so easy to handle.. or bear with.. yup.. so thanks darling... haha.. sigh...

even though it's the holidays.. i've never really gotten the time to take a break.. what i mean by break is no agenda.. nothing to plan for.. nothing to think about.. waking up late... doing what you want.. or in this case, what I want... sigh..ever since my papers finish... i've been working a lot.. it's been 2 weeks of 10 days of work... kind of burnt..

the weird part about me.. i still haven't learnt to say no to people... if my partners ask me to replace them on one of my off days and i have nothing on, then.. i'll just do it... no questions asked... if friends wanna meet me.. they give me a date.. and me... if i'm busy.. i'll propose another date... as for my cousins.. sometimes, i give up bowling and going out with friends just for them... unless i'm fully booked, da answer would most likely be a yes.. heh.. which is why i'm in this state now..

being busy has it's pros and cons... they used to be pros... til now.. they've kind of become cons.. sure it keeps me busy... involved... up to date and all that.. got loads of friends.. but... when friends are concern.. how well do u get to know them with the little time u get to spend with them... and for the few that do get your time.. how much do they appreciate u?

sigh... why is it human nature to think of yourself more than others?? hmm.. i guess it's kind of true that u mention the word "i" more than the word u or them or they.. or maybe...... sometimes even all of them put together.. don't believe me?? try it out for yourself.. just pay a lil more attention to yourself and to those you spend time with... you'll definately realise that it's so true... it's sad... but *shrugx*

i think i shall end here... don't feel like saying anything else..

i am pissed.. everything i typed has been wiped out... so therefore... i shall type it another day.. heh..

i'm finally home quite early tonight.. haha... well, am already very tired... and definately looking forward to sat... or fri since i'm hoping to change that shift.. heh..

well, this is what happened today...

i had to kick myself out of bed at 8 so that i could go to work by 10... and on top of that, it was raining..... very unpredictable weather... was quite tired in da shoes i was wearing.. feet hurt too.. heh... den after that had training in da evening.. was ok at first... den after that... my release went mad... it was everything but right... sad larh... haha.. and everyone agrees that i need more sleep... oh well... talking about pressing issues with alpha... dun worry... we're fine.. nothing to do with us... discussing stuff only....

catch up later...