Sigh.. it seems like all my posts are becoming really depressing... maybe i'm depressed... maybe i'm too stressed... maybe it's just all a big test... ah! i know! maybe it's all a dream.. come on... tell me i'm dreaming... it seems all too disastrous.. wish i were a kid again... carefree and all...

on this quite fine sunday nite... instead of just checking mails, playing games and watching tv, i find myself evaluating more about this morning's worship session with desmond, at the same time, giving weijie (publicity head) and arthur (asst. projects head) details about the events... on top of that, i've got my mom screaming at me telling me that i shouldn't go over to alpha's house too much juz becoz they've got more facilities there.. and she's also shoving the article about people with insufficient sleep may be more prone to cancer and stuff like that... den a minute later, she's asking me to quit my job coz they don't pay when we get sick for working too much... she doesn't want me to work late coz she's worried that i won't be able to get on with the next day's activities... i know how she feels... but there's no other shift i can take.. not even on weekends becoz of training and church... so... bottom line is....... if i quit work, i got no money to bowl.. if i don't bowl and work, there's a high chance i'll spend more cash on shopping and eating... sigh...

and besides that, mom's upset coz spady's sick.. and he's being naughty.... we're doing the best we can for him, but he's doing the best he can to not help.... heh... and... besides that, she's spent 500 plus on his medical... ex larh.. my pay oso need to go there liao.. another of her "headaches" is that grandma is still thinking that raquel (her care-taker aka maid) keeps cursing and screaming at her... basically, she'll find someting and anything to argue about... oh... she basically tells me everything.. so hmm... not exactly in that good a mood...

will continue next time... for now, i gotta do a proposal for the NP invitationals... gotta train hard to stay in the school team... gotta work hard to keep spady and my bowling leisure thingys going.. gotta study hard to not disappoint people... gotta put time aside for church friends, and other friends too... they're all important to me! =) besides that, gotta find time for my family.... and lastly, gotta keep time for alpha too... oh... i forgot... i need to sleep... hahaha... so yarp.. the alpha thing's the second last.... the last is i need time to rest... i kind of found out that napping on buses doesn't really help much....

til next time... =)

okok... to all my silent readers out there... thousands of apologies for not updating my blog... been busy.... really really busy...

well.. since my last update til last weekend, i've been busy working.... my original intention was to have extras to go bowling and to buy christmas pressies.... ( it is coming ya noe...) anyway.. yeah.. so i worked 4, 3, 4, 6 days each week for the last month... but i guess my money has to go to more important causes like bringing spady to the vet.. his medical fee has already cost mom more than 200 bucks.. he's done an ultrasound.... a blood test... den a jab of antibodies... and other stuff... we've gotta like pump saline into him to flush out all abnormalties kind of thing.. and.. yeah... oh well.. he's got kidney problems.. so troublesome... but i'd rather be troubled than loose him on da whole.. so oh well... my poor baby.. he looks so uncomfortable... sometimes larh.. not all da time...

next update.. school's started... like duh... and... i've gotta crack my head to make sure all my events get executed.... argh.. so much to do.. so little time... 1 proposal... 2 budget plans... booking of lanes... ladidardidar... wadeva larh...

next up... alpha's moved... i shall be his official announcer... haha... hmm... well, i love his place.. and for once, his wardrobe is nice... nicely packed... neat... haha.. done by urs truely... so happy... happy for him.. and well.. half of me is happy.. but da other is not... happy coz of da obvious.. nice new place... he's happy, i'm happy.. other half of me is thinking whether we'll have enough time for each other.. reason being my world kind of revolves around town and amk area.... and he's at like.. far far away.. sure it's near school.. but how long will i be in NP for? sigh... i'm so tired already... but i don't really have a choice do i?! oh well....

cheerio!

am back from a long day... well.. the week has been quite havoc... plenty of work stuff to do... like work itself.. and also this partner's communication board thingy where we're supposed to have our name, fav drink, description of drink and pic of ourselves on da board... it's not so much a simple straight forward thing coz we'll be judged on creativity too... heh... am suffering a lot coz everyone seems so busy... and alicia.. well, she's just plain tired... but i guess... what i've committed too... i muz keep to... rite?

haha.. well.... one thing to look forward for to is that my two annoying cousins will be done with their exams for this year.. that'd mean... no more tutoring them for da rest of da year... yay! haha...

bad thing.... i think i'll have to work 6 days next wk... for one... the whole of starbucks is lacking partners... so yeah... haha... but at least i've made known that i don't wanna do back to back shifts.. haha.. so yay! =)

hmm.. besides that.. did i mention that i mention to meet alpha on tues when he had his nite's out... and we went for a show... and we took neoprint.. well.... actually, juz a neo card.. haha... but it's still cool anyway... ohoh... and besides that... i din go for lily's farewell chalet... too tired.. din feel like staying over... wanted my own bed... haha..

hmm.. gotta start cracking... tata!