not the perfect end to the week...

this is seriously the wrong time coz i've got a million one things to do... but... this is one of the few channels that i can rant and rave like no one's business... heh...

firstly, i'm damn freaking tired... haven't had a good sleep in a long time... got so many things on my mind... hmm.. besides that, it's exam week.... got a paper tmr and on wednesday... haven't really studied.. sure.. blame it on lack of discipline in my own life.. so be it lar.. i'll admit it anyway... but den... i do need time for myself... sigh... bad time management... argh.. so annoying... anyway, i've hardly studied or revised anything... haven't been paying much attention in school... and.... i can't exactly not work these few weeks coz everyone else is taking a break... the most idiotic thing is that i got a paper tmr.. and had to work todae... straight after da paper, gotta go do closing again... sigh.. i wanna rest.. i miss dressing up... i miss shopping... but den.. can't complain coz i dun wanna leave starbucks... heh.. wadeva lar.. dun feel like updating anymore... had quite a crap day todae lar.. and yeah.. u can see the tiredness on me already.. heh.. wadeva lar.. dun feel like saying anymore..

Gosh... this is bad....

haha.. ok.. maybe i'm going a lil too far... but yeah... i'm ALREADY missing my starbucks partners.... after being attached to 15 stores... and knowing other people from other stores i haven't been to..... yeah..... i'm gonna miss pulling shots... making messes... clearing messes... haha... and above all, miss all the partners... ah!!!!!!!!!! it's driving me insane!!!!! and on top of that, so many stores and their managers have asked me to stay larh... argh.... so tempting... haha.. ok.. am mad..

anyway, survived a 9+ over hr shift today... haha.. yay me! and i'm still super hyper... muz be mad somewhere.. haha... 4+ hrs at rc... and 5+ at ms... haha.. whee!!! ok.. nvm... hyped up...

time and tide waits for no man

ok.. so my title's aren't as fancy as others.. but who gives a shit...

anyway, found the time to blog surf today.. realised that i haven't done it in eons... it's more or less a wake up call.. coz i think i've got more church friends blog addresses than anyone elses...

yes.. i feel quite detached from church life at the moment.. detached from the people there too.. maybe it's because i dont't spend enough time there... but then again, maybe becoz everyone there's too busy doing their own thing as well... that i'm not so sure.. but sadly, i don't feel much of a connection...

i think.. in the past one or two years, quite a few people have gone overseas... some, supposed to be my really good friends.. but... we honestly never really kept in touch... ok.. it'll be unfair to say that.. i hardly have time.. or to be honest, never really bother... i guess.. to me, the distance makes a difference... but... i try not too...

since 2 over years ago, time's have changed so so so much.. it seemed like just yesterday when all of us in church spent so much time hanging out together... life that time was really considered care-free and easy going... i just can't stop mentioning that things have really changed a lot... everyone's moved on.. or at least they're trying too... everyone seems to have a new life... new schools.. new friends... new job... new clothes... house... shoes... bags... from the really significant things to the really insignificant ones... but... after taking the effort to do the things u do, how many people actually notice it?!?! i've kind of learnt... it's nice to just slow down once in awhile to think about the things people have done for you... hmm... strangely enough, there's seriously no ulterior motive for saying all this today.. just feel like it..

but yeah... i feel so distant from the people i use to be close to.. and feel so comfortable with the people i found strange last time.. haha.. life really is ironic... but... everything in life happens for a reason...

i think what i missed from last time was the hang out sessions i had sometimes a few time a week with leong... the nice free nights where i had absolutely nothing to do.... just to come home and slack in front of the tv.. or the computer for that matter...

another thing i missed is many many catch up sessions with many people... life's passing so fast now that there's so little time and so much to do.. or.. as some of my friends say.. bad time management.. and others say... doing too many unnecessary things...

i really don't know what people think of me now... and i'm not sure what to think of other people too... but what i do know is that you should have confidence in youself... i think.. that's the key for life in general...

hmm... clarence sent this survey to me... it's rather interesting... u get to learn bout what ur friends think of u.. and u get to see what ur other friends think about ur friend too..
haha... when u're free, go do it! =)


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thanks babes and hunks!

and fyi, i really thank God for all of you out there... i think i'm real lucky to have so many friends around... =)