Reality..............................

gosh... u have absolutely no idea how bad reality gets... it's not merely who can't stand who.. and who can't work with whoeva... it's so much more than that...

money... politics... love... sigh... why did i have to get dragged into it so early?? i think now i've joined the game, there's no turning back... and.. on top of that... i'll probably hafta become a real bitch (although i think some of u already view me as one of the biggest bitches u've come across)

i'm quite mixed up.. lost... feeling rather fucked up as well... wishing i could juz run away from everything...

politics wise.... well, i can play if u want me to... but... i'm also quite tired of that... it's like.. come on... there's probably quite a few people out there after me.. or at least where i'm at la... so tired of trying not to harm anyone... and still putting them in their place... i don't know how much more i can tolerate... i don't exactly wanna ruin anybody's life... not now.. hopefuly.. not ever.. but.. something tells me i may not have a choice...

things are just so different than wad it seems... people who seem good... may or should i say mostly have a different side that hardly anyone sees...

and on top of that.. wad's with guys man?? why all so high sex drive wan?? and.. also.. why when one likes u, u get a whole lot more of them trying to get u?? so sickening.... seriously... hmm.. maybe i should swear off guys manz... hah...

ah!!! i need an output outlet... dunno how much more i can take before i go mad.. help!!

So sick of life...

ok.. so some of my posts may contradict myself.. but den again, that's life la.. nothing ever turns out the way you want...

if you were to be a good guy.. u'd basically get swollowed up by whoever or whatever else.. if u play mean.. it means.. really mean... argh.. sometimes, i hate the real world..

it's kind of the same in every aspect of life.. different kind of the same... heh.. this is complicating ain't it?? anyway, my point is that.. there're so many forks in the road... it's so damn blardy frustrating to choose... can i like.. juz not choose at all and move in a totally different direction...

wad's worst is that i hate it when i've gotta break other peoples heart in the process.. but that's just life.. nothing works out right... and.. in this case.. i dun think i'll be breaking one person's heart... but more like... at least... 5 or 6 people...

gosh... why????

maybe staying single's better... haha...

It's over!!!

yay!!! internship.. OVER! report.. OVER! viva (aka presentation) OVER!! woohoo!! need i say more?? i'm free!!!!!