Good-bye 2009

In the blink of an eye, everyone's now waiting to usher in 2010. For most people I know, it hasn't been a very good year.

Looking back on the year. There's juz been so many events that's happened. Let's see.....

For my family,

there was mom's op much earlier in the year. Not to mention the shocker that followed after was that she got diagnosed with cancer. After that, her 8 chemo sessions. Thank God that's all over now. And there were the countless arguments and disagreements that happened coz of a particular someone.

for grand, there was the very bad fall she had in august. broken arm, about 2-3 months of hospitalization. Loads of running up and down coz of that. Not to mention her dementia that's gotten way bad...

for bear, good for her I must say. She's now a pastor. She's always there when you need her. And i also realised that she's really been a friend towards some people I know of.

for koufu and family, well, another year goes by. Thankfully his health problems hasn't taken a toll for ther worst. the boys have managed to get through another school year.

kimpo, it's sad that she's no longer with us. but, i'm glad she's in a better place now. she was a really sweet old lady. always putting others before herself.

aunt ros, sadly, she got diagnosed with cancer too. thankfully, she's in quite good spirits and she's got a positive attitude.

For my friends,

well, things weren't working out between terence and i. I'm glad he's moving on.

nell and raaj... haha. now that's complicating. the constant arguments throughout the year. but nonetheless, i believe they still love each other. and bottom line, somehow, they're both still together. i pray that they'll both manage to find a way to work things out and stop arguing so much. learn to understand each other for who they are i guess..

donavan.. heh. well, i've got no comments there. he's been around when i need him most. his life, well, he's back in school. i'm not too sure bout r/s wise though. but i trust that he knows wad he's doing.

teresa.. haha. another long story. but then again, she's always here for me too. to rant, rave, kill time.... the fact that she's still dating after all this time means she's not giving up completely on love yet. I hope that maybe this new year will bring someone who's really suitable for her.

rodrick.. sometimes i think he's really too nice for his own good.. he's also been around for ben n me.. i'm quite surprised at the things that he'd sometimes do to help a friend. I hope that he'll find the things that make him happy.

eugenia.. hahaha.. this woman ah.. haven't caught up with her for the longest time.. but yeah. i'm glad she's one of those that whacks me in the head when she finds that she needs to. and i'm also glad that thomas and her are expecting their first child, shanon, which by right, should be due any time now..

geets.. this woman.. always so busy... hardly have time to catch up. and when we eventually do, there's so much drama in her life too...

esther leong.. prob known her the longest out of everyone mentioned above. we don't talk as much now. but we're always there for each other. glad that her life's pretty much coming along. she's doing the things she loves.. and definitely has people around her that love her..

well, these are juz some of my friends..

as for me...
in a way, i'm glad i got out of my last relationship. and i'm ever so thankful that i found ben too.. although, i can't help but wonder once in awhile whether i should really be in another relationship so quickly. hmm.. that's the problem with me.. i tend to think too much.. and i'm easily brain-washed by mom.

studies wise, i'm glad i've still got a school to go to despite nearly being kicked out last sem. i even scored credits for both the modules i did. =) so proud of myself. haha.

i'm glad i'm putting this brain of mine to good use. been serving in ministry. helping out where ever i can. been tutoring.. trying to make extra money on my own.

then, comes the down side. i still have horrible sleeping habits... i'm probably still the queen of last minutes.. but at the same time, i'm glad God never gave up on me. I've still seen some of the most amazing opportunities being thrown my way.

On the bright side, God delivered and brought us through all this crap. Even though there's been so many ups and downs, I'm really glad that through it all, he's brought me closer to the family. He's closed some doors but opened others. i'm glad that i've got so many people around me who care and love me. looking at things this way, i don't think this year has been all that bad... hah! i complicate myself...

i guess i juz take things upon myself too much. it juz pains me to see others around me suffering..

so here's me, praying that everyone of u out there who know me and have other problems of ur own have a better year ahead. =)

what doesn't kill u only makes u stronger. as much as u hate to admit it.. =x

love u all!

Ben's Birthday

wow.. today was definitely a day of ups and downs.. in a way, it was really freaky coz he seemed more down than happy. don't quite know what would cheer him up.. n he doesn't say much when he's upset. even worse. i got no idea wad's going thru his mind...

it was a total emotional roller coaster ride...

well, it usually is anyway.. life's still the same soap opera it's been for quite awhile now..

however, i guess it wasn't all that bad la.. 'cept for the fact that he's been long deprived of sleep. and i'm an idiot who can survive on little sleep if i have to.. haha.. he was practically falling asleep sitting on the chair while waiting for don.. heh.

dinner was quite a change of the usual too. not one of our usual haunts. marriot. hah! it was fun though. doubt we will do it too often.. i dunno bout him. but he should agree with me.. we'd rather be messy eaters! ahahahahahaha.. =p

messed up world

Seeing a friend on a self-destruct path is never a good thing even though you don't know that person too well. What hurts more is to see someone close to you be so tormented over it.

Personally, hate is a very strong word to use. I really harbour no ill-intentions for people. If I don't like them, I just keep my distance.

Life is already twisted enough w/o people trying to play God.. people get hurt, upset, heartbroken even on a day to day basis. But.. why put people thru more than what's necessary?

I've learnt that good things in life just take time. Some longer than others. But all in good time..

Even if you don't know that person well, is it necessary to mess up a person's life more than it already is? I don't think so.

Even the healing process takes time.

sigh. i wonder why people do it..