Pissed off... and... rather depressed...

maybe it's just me... or.. it might be a fact as well... it's like.. everytime i come back to NP for a term or something to that effect... i get depressed over something... heh.. or... should i say... i hit just another hurdle in life...

2 sems ago... it was relationship problems... now.. it's club problems.. and well.. relationship problems to some extent... haha.. da relationship last time was da BGR sort.. now.. i think it's more on da friendship sorts... i'm not surprised la...

maybe it's just me.. or... maybe it's da way they've been brought up... i don't know.. i find nothing wrong in wad i'm doing..

ok... so here's da info straight from da horse's mouth.. i'm attached... i've got a malay boyfriend... heh.. happy?? but... NO... i am NOT converting... nv eva... anyway, i'm happy.. so u should be too...

i know most have found out.. but chose not to say anything... doesn't matter that u're waiting for me to tell u.. or... u don't wanna hear da truth... i don't know.. at da moment, can't be bothered either...

i'm not lost.. i'm not confused, but honestly, i don't see the point anymore... heh... dun give a shit anymore..

anyway, as for da club side.. yeah.. like i've definately mentioned somewhere b4... i'm tired.. it's not easy running da club by myself esp when u've gotta chase after so many people.. of which more than half love procrastinating...

argh.. so pissed off.. i wanna step down.... step down as in.. totally not give a shit bout wad happens.. about whether u people have gotten da work done.. or not... can't really give a shit no more....

heh.. maybe i'm juz tired..

Prejudice, discrimination, social status, ranks, positions, responsibilities and wad nots..

it's kind of frustrating being in leadership positions.. ok.. who am i kidding.. you get screwed for the slightest mistake.. by ur superiors... as well as those under u... heh... ok.. so those under u don't really screw u.. but.. they ask the dumbest questions... like.. hello... read da black and white print la... u're not fucking educated for nothing... it's singapore education sommore... like pls.. ur intelligence level should be higher than that... heh..

to my bowlers, welcome to the real world.. if u dun wanna loose out, u gotta move fast... and catch up with the world... da world doesn't wait for you... eva heard of da saying time and tide waits for no man??

hmm.. da IS class i'm taking now really brings in a whole new perspective.. hmm... wrong wrong.. not quite new perspective.. it just makes some things so obvious.. as in.. this right under ur noses that you'd normally take for granted.. or miss out.. or.. in fact, it's just been a part of society.. racism and discrimination.. sensitive subject.. and even though singapore's known as multi racial and all that.. i think there are still a lot of people out there who discriminate against each other.. also a lot of stereotyping.. come to think about it, it's actually quite sad... as in.. da way people judge other people by first impressions... by their "race".. which by the way.. the word was also created to discriminate different people in terms of where they come from, their habits n lifestyles and all...

hmm.. to me, everyone's special in their own way.. hope i've made u feel special in one way or another... no one's da same.. everyone's different... and.. everyone's human as well..

aiyah.. still so frustrated..
gonna turn in.. got training tmr at 8..
ciao...

second wk of school... and da festivities...

ok.. it's da second wk of school.. i'm sitting here listening to my lecturer... it's ok la... kind of e-commerce kind of lecture.. haha...

hmm... a wk's passed... seen all my lecturers... know wad's i should be expecting in this last final semester.. deepavali's over.. (my sincere apologies to kesh for not turning up on sunday..) had a movie and makan outing with all my clubbing kaki... hari raya's over as well.. yup..

haha.. dun feel like saying much.. only that.. i'm NOT converting.. i might look malay too.. but I'M NOT.. haha.. and.. i'm not getting married anytime soon..

oh.. did i mention i got a stomach upset after all da good food?? too much curry.. i'm thinking it's da coconut... haha.. pedas la.. but bagus sial.. haha..

some pics...

a group pic from da movie/makan session..



hari raya visitation pics..