the brat in me...

so.. i din go to sleep excitedly or even... hmm.. guess it juz felt like i had nothing to look forward to anymore. all because of one phone call and a few words..the nxt few days are gonna be so... dead..

but anyway, i ended up going to sleep late. and everything juz felt so dreary and dull that I somehow couldn't pull myself out of bed. came in late... like... really late... close to an hr after my starting time. dreading everything so much that somehow i'm even able to make myself feel sick.. yeah. i'm probably sick in the head more than anything else though.

never knew that anyone could miss someone so badly. you've stipped the smile of my face...

I am happy coz I'll soon be able to clear my debts.
I am frustrated coz of the space constraints in my new room.
I am upset coz I don't know wad my life will be like after I achieve some form of financial security.

bitchy, ranting me

today.... today.... ah... how i wish it juz didn't happen.

thankfully. i know for a fact that not many people read my blog anymore. if you do, pls drop me a comment.. haha.

anyway, today.....

jumped out of bed thinking i was late for a lunch appointment only to find out that it's the wrong day. called my other appointment only to find it cancelled as well. come down to starbucks thinking maybe i could do dinner with ben or run around if he wasn't finishing that soon. therefore. i didn't bring my laptop adaptor. i didn't bring my storybook. plus i left the cash that mom gave me under my bed... handphone running low...

find out that his ex is engaged... happy for her. happy for my ex too coz he's already married. but the feeling's juz bad....

oh well...