it's gonna be a day to my birthday in awhile... and honestly, i'm not too sure how well it'll turn out...

at this point in time... i don't know what to feel... i guess everything put together would be called defeat... maybe i shouldn't be posting it here... but then again... i don't know... wanna see thru me... this is ur chance..

well... today... was having dinner at mac with mom.. coz it was the coolest place at the ave. 10 market.. saw this couple.. probably a sec 1 gal and a sec 3 guy... and guess what?! like life isn't hard enough... mom just had to say that why is everyone throwing away their life at such an early age? why's everyone closing all the doors so soon? she's been saying the same about me since 3 yrs plus ago... well, i honestly thought she was over it... but she's apparently still hoping that i'll leave alpha... why's the world like that?? worst of all... why must she be so direct... so straight forward.. why does her words always slap me across the face every now and then... just when i've more or less forgotten, she'd come and throw more comments my way..

on top of that... well, i guess this is not too serious... depending on how lionel takes it... i was juz curious as to why they broke up then got back together again... sigh... i got my info mixed up.. and i did type it on the msn window.. that i mistook ivan's ex with lionel's current/ex.. wadeva larh.. apparently she got pissed and he got into a lot of trouble... it's like... if u're attached... there should be TRUST.... where's that?! next.... why on earth should either party in the relationship get influenced by an outsider...

like HELLO!!!! come on.... don't be so naive... there's only so much time we have on earth... why think so much?!?!?! sigh...

oh... it's past 12 now... haha... just 1 more day til i turn 18... in case i don't get to say this tmr.... i'll say it one last time...

"HI!!!! i'm pui yee(or shirlyn... which eva u know me as...)... and i'm 17 plus!! yay! haha... =)