Do or Die...

At the moment, I'm so sick and tired of everything. Everytime I try to pick myself up, something happens and slams me back down to the ground time and time again. Hardly anything's gone right. Sometimes, I really ask myself what i did to deserve all this crap. And, til now, I honestly don't have the answer.

Ok, so you might be thinking, "Why's this girl so miserable? Can't she just drop what she's doing?" Well, yes, I can drop what I'm doing coz it was a personal choice to take it up in the first place. But, the only reason why I do what I do is because I love it. I'm the type of girl that goes all out to do stuff I'm supposed to. The misery part only comes in when mis-understandings or what knots happen. And come on, let's face it! In reality, shit really happens a lot. Quite safe to say, on a daily basis.

I know a lot of you out there are concerned bout me. And, I thank you for that. Just that, unless I drop dead or should I say, knock out doing something or, you force me to do it by having proved that you yourself can handle it, FAT HOPE of me putting my work aside. I'm sorry. I know i'm stubborn. *shrugx* Can't help it. All in the blood. ;)

But, it would be nice to be treated like a human. And if you think i'm being unreasonable, come and we'll talk it out. I'm a girl who'll do stuff and most of the time, not mention that I've done what I've done. So yeah. Doesn't necessarily mean I just ask people to do stuff.

Yeah yeah. I've heard a whole lot of shit about me having nerves of steel or stuff like that. And yes, it is true that no one has made me cry before. But just because I choose to hold myself together doesn't mean it doesn't hurt inside. I am after all a girl. And depending on the situation, I'd definately like to be treated like one.

I still need a break. haha. Wonder where i can go get one. Preferably out of the country otherwise I'd still do work on the side. Hmm...