it's me again.. and it's a thursday morning... the sun is shining... and there's a nice breeze outside... (can see trees swaying...) yup... i'm in class... air-con.. so.. no breeze.. thankfully, it's not that cold.. otherwise, i'll have to defrost myself later... yup... haha.. forgot to bring my jacket... *Sobz* haha... hmm.. what can i say?!?!?! my teacher walked in this morning looking as if she'd juz got out of bed.. hair was rather messy... and looked rather sleepy too... and if u asked me, i think i prefer her when she doesn't talk.. haha.. gotta attend classes on how to pronouce words properly.. haha.. whee!!! ok.. so i'm kind of high now... but who cares?! haha...

oh... another thing that's worth updating about is that i tutored my cousin n his cousin.. yup... had quite a lot of fun... they were a lil hyper at first.. then after that, they got a lil restless.. ok.. maybe not a lil.. but quite a lot.. haha.. yup.. but we had fun together.. think the guys prefer me much more to when their parents teach them... firstly, i push and push and push them.. secondly, i make things as fun as possible.. and lastly, i don't cane them... it's against all my morals... haha.. yup... they were fun larh.. but i was super exhausted after i finished with them... *pengz* haha.. and i had to tutor them on an empty stomach too.. *growls* haha.. yarp...

oh.. n since i'm at it, an update from tekong?!?! hmm... the guys are fine... alpha had a swimming test yesterdae... (to see if they can swim or not...) so obviously he can't swim... aha.. so he was only in da water for 1 min or so.. haha.. gosh.. he's missing out on so much fun... not to mention the peacefulness of being under water.. yarp.. i juz love da water.. haha.. oh.. and ben tan's in scorpian company.. apparently there's a white horse there too.. (hmm.. anyone knows the meaning?? kind of wanna know the percentage of pple who knoe the meaning of white horse..) but yeah.. besides that, nothing much larh.. except that alpha gets teased by his secton mates everytime he calls me... so now he leave's his section to call me.. haha.. and the govt has also seriously expanded their appetite.. they eat so much now... and they snack so much too... the amount of food each section brings in when they book in is really scary... and i think it's now gonna be an every week affair.. haha.. ok.. gotta run.. tata...

ok.. so it's official... i've stopped my practical lessons for piano... but i'm gonna finish at least my grade 5 theory first... so.. still got theory lessons... yup... so now.. i dunno... i kind of feel different... it's strange... i'm not sure whether i've made the right decision... or whether i rushed it without thinking... i feel happy coz i'm free from practicing(can't really commit..) and i need not worry bout an extra set of exams... yet again.. kind of feel weird... coz i can't recall a time where piano lessons weren't a part of my life.. it's just a strange feeling... but i think i should get over it...

have u ever experienced the occassional days that make u feel as if u're really clueless about ur next step... u have absolutely no idea what to do... and what's worst, the one closest to u can't spend more time than 10 minutes on the phone with u??? well.. today's one of those days...

so the story goes... i seem to have completely lost interest in my piano lessons... and finally, i've got mom to allow me to stop my lessons... the only problem is that she treats u like an adult.. and u really don't know what to do coz there are both pros and cons... the worst part, alpha n her both keep rubbing in how much i'd have wasted if i don't continue... but now, i'm only worried that if i continue, i'll be wasting er money even more... i'm really lost... not to mention confused too...

the pros... i don't have much interest no more... i'd get a lil more time for myself.. don't have to worry bout practicing... don't have to worry bout perfecting songs... (coz that's what it's all about) i guess it'll help mommy save some money too...(music school really sucks money like nobody's business..) don't need to spoil my ears with a out of tune piano... save mommy n myself the heartache of wanting to get a new piano but not being able to affor it...

the cons... juz 3 more years to complete my grade 8... (come to think about it, it is quite wasted...) i'll prob let my mommy down.. and maybe alpha.. but i'm not too sure bout him... i'll be forcing myself to do it.. i prob won't enjoy it as much as i used to...

sigh.. i really really don't know... i'm looking at it from da perspective that i can always continue my piano lessons as and when i like in life... but as for bowling, now that i've started playing competitively, i think if i'm able to get somewhere by bowling, i'll prob end my bowling "career" in my late 30s at most?! sigh.. i really don't know...

help!! someone.. anyone... sigh.. tonight i've definately gotten sick of hearing... "well, it's really up to u.. it's a decision only u can make..." like... God.. can anyone tell me anything else??? i know i've gotta make da decison myself.. but besides that, as mentioned above, alot of other comments are thrown in as well.. which throws me completely off... sigh... i really don't know...