have u ever experienced the occassional days that make u feel as if u're really clueless about ur next step... u have absolutely no idea what to do... and what's worst, the one closest to u can't spend more time than 10 minutes on the phone with u??? well.. today's one of those days...

so the story goes... i seem to have completely lost interest in my piano lessons... and finally, i've got mom to allow me to stop my lessons... the only problem is that she treats u like an adult.. and u really don't know what to do coz there are both pros and cons... the worst part, alpha n her both keep rubbing in how much i'd have wasted if i don't continue... but now, i'm only worried that if i continue, i'll be wasting er money even more... i'm really lost... not to mention confused too...

the pros... i don't have much interest no more... i'd get a lil more time for myself.. don't have to worry bout practicing... don't have to worry bout perfecting songs... (coz that's what it's all about) i guess it'll help mommy save some money too...(music school really sucks money like nobody's business..) don't need to spoil my ears with a out of tune piano... save mommy n myself the heartache of wanting to get a new piano but not being able to affor it...

the cons... juz 3 more years to complete my grade 8... (come to think about it, it is quite wasted...) i'll prob let my mommy down.. and maybe alpha.. but i'm not too sure bout him... i'll be forcing myself to do it.. i prob won't enjoy it as much as i used to...

sigh.. i really really don't know... i'm looking at it from da perspective that i can always continue my piano lessons as and when i like in life... but as for bowling, now that i've started playing competitively, i think if i'm able to get somewhere by bowling, i'll prob end my bowling "career" in my late 30s at most?! sigh.. i really don't know...

help!! someone.. anyone... sigh.. tonight i've definately gotten sick of hearing... "well, it's really up to u.. it's a decision only u can make..." like... God.. can anyone tell me anything else??? i know i've gotta make da decison myself.. but besides that, as mentioned above, alot of other comments are thrown in as well.. which throws me completely off... sigh... i really don't know...