someone killed the night...

heh... life kind of sux... normally, sat evenings are spent with church people.. but today, we had our final comm gathering for last yr's comm.. well, first n last.. heh.. dinner was fun... but one by one.. people just HAD to leave... ok la.. not really their fault... but yeah... alicia had to go meet her friends.. den lionel left... den derek not allowed to go out late... den davin didn't wanna go out late coz there was no car.. and den... there were 2... 2's not really that fun to hang out... and besides, he was looking for other friends to go out with too...
sometimes, i really wished i had more crazy n out going friends... haha.. and maybe a few more who look hot.. haha.. ok.. so i'm mad.. but yeah.. lately, it feels as if my life's all about work and responsibilities... kind of sux.. when i've got time to go hang out and chill.. everyone else seems to have other agendas... and on other days.... when they go out, i've gotta be home early so i can get up for work da next day... argh... frustrating.. is there more to me than juz work and being responsible and living up to others expectations!?!? sigh..

being me is difficult...

hmm.. i think quite a few of u may disagree to the title.. but to me, it's life.. seriously...

imagine if u wake up everyday... doing things just to please others and try your very best to make everyone around you happy... hmm.. doesn't sound too bad does it?! everybody's happy, you're happy.. well.. that's seriously what i used to thihnk.. until lately.. heh... but i guess... that's life... everybody.. ok lar.. maybe not everyone.. but a lot of people tend to take other people for granted.. it's quite sickening... and there are also some... who realise they've been mis-treating you... and have a total change of heart to try making up for it... and sometimes, the way they try's really freaky...

ok.. the past 1 and a half weeks since my last update.. well, it's been busy... work's quite a killer.. getting many things from many people who don't know what each other give me.. -_-" but yeah.. i guess i'm coping.. juz that take short breaks here and there coz the screen really kills... end up staying back late on quite a few days coz u just hafta rush stuff...

infact, it can sometimes be so tiring that... yeah.. i din have the energy to train on monday... it's like... how bad can life get?!?! everything tires u out... and u have absolutely no time to rest coz your schedule's so packed with stuff... it's either u gotta live up to others expectations.. or u've gotta make sure things go smoothly... heh.. it's sometimes such a chore... heh.. oh well.. but i guess i should quit complaining coz i enjoy making things happen..

oh.. and i guess i kind of got into trouble coz i overslept this morning and din check my phone so i could inform da others that lunch had been cancelled... guys.. if u all read this, i'm really really sorry... mr gerald ang actually msged me at 10 plus in da morning... but i din wake up til 12.15..
:( paiseh.. esp to arthur who i know already left the house... and wj.. for getting there 5 mins after i msged him... sorry...

k lar.. that's about it for now, i really gotta go do my work now... sucks rite?! gotta bring home office work to do... bleahx... k lar.. ciao..

Blinded

haha... interesting title don't u think, i think, it can mean many many different things... but for now, the only thing is literally going blind...

with the office coms, i am quite sure i'll go blind by the time i finish here... heh... -_-"