The 20s crisis

I don't know about the majority. But quite a healthy number of people i know off suffer from this.

some get it better than others. the rest, well, tough luck i guess.

It's the time in life where we realise that life isn't as simple as it was made out to be or as it was made known to us.

All along, we've been hearing people tell us. Study hard. Get a good degree. Get a good job. But. Is it really enough? There are so many circumstances in this world that show us otherwise. We do everything we're told since we were kids... or almost everything. Our parents protect us. Teach us what's right and what wrong morally. They show us what to look out for in the world and tell us what the look out for in the future. (well.. some don't..) anyway, the question. is what they're doing really enough? is it even right to begin with.

It's SO unbelievably true that people learn best from experience. However, when parents do the above mentioned, what do the children benefit? and for the children. or if we're talking about the 20s crisis, then the young adult, what good is studying til you achieve the best piece of paper there is to get out there, but while studying, you neglect (usually by force) the part about gaining experience. getting down to the point, no one would agree to employ you if you only have theory but no work experience to back you up. so coming full circle, is a piece of paper really that important?

ok. so let's say you've got that ridiculous piece of paper.. you managed to get a job as a trainee in this market. with the economy in it's current state, plus people who don't trust others easily, bosses are trying to get the best out of what they're paying, employees don't quit even if they feel like shit coz of the fear that they won't land another job. what are the chances you'll actually get to learn stuff, get promoted and get the hard-earned pay increment without driving yourself six feet underground??

then there's always the case of others who are just like you. fighting for the exact things you're fighting for. what makes you more competent? what makes you stand out? what makes you succeed faster than the rest? even with the ideas and the know-how proven that you can do it, without experience, you're basically still a nobody.

then there's always the case of one still being young. people think you're as immature as you were when they saw you perhaps more than 10 years ago?! that doesn't help in getting things done either.

with the horribly underpaid salary, how is one expected to save for his/her own future. let's just assume a 1.8k paying job. $300 would probably go to travel expenses. $500 to food. $200 to bills. $400 to the parentals perhaps?! leaving you only $400 left for misc stuff. talk about a future of settling down... you probably gotta first start thinking of a way to get through the month... what if you start off with something less than 1.8.. what if there are other things that require your attention? medical bills perhaps? insurance?

in my opinion, you need money to generate more money. but with no money to begin with, how do you start generating some money for more money?

you end up where you are. not knowing how to get out of what you're in. not knowing what possible move you can next make. not knowing what will become of your future.

to be really negative, one could end up thinking that he/she would be better off alone. but.. we just weren't created for a world of isolation..

the thing about the world is that no one gives a shit about whether you're doing it for your own selfish reasons or whether you're doing it for more worthy causes.

it's sad. really. it is.

.:inspired by ben & shir's life of late:.

lost

i'm sitting here right now suddenly feeling lost. i don't know what's in store for the future. i don't know if what i'm doing is or what i will be doing constructive for my future. i don't know if it would end up more a disaster either.

in life, the biggest problem is when you think you know what you're doing or what you intend to do. but the people around you don't do things with the pace you want to get things done at. biggest problem is that nothing is within your control. you've done all you can and that's about it.

..disheartened..

another one and a half mths gone with the wind...

I honestly didn't know it's been that long since my last update. since then, da dramas have more or less died down.

end sept, early oct, i took a trip up to KL for business.. relatively eventful however, not quite enough info to kick anything off. still in the process of that discussion. it was nice to get to know my aunt and cousin better after always being the small girl who hides behind mommy.. haha.. it was cool.. too bad i didn't have the guts to drive around KL.. damn.. haha..

besides that, started to slow down n study for my exams as and when I could. decided to help rex with barossa's halloween event. i must say, i did kind of enjoy myself. however, i'm one who cannot put up with incompetence. or with people who get priorities and details messed up. frustrating at the same time, definitely a sense of achievement when things have successfully gone up.

might end up taking a break from studies for awhile. got offered quite a good opportunity that those close to me think i should take it up. at the same time, i guess i'll have to be careful and put everything down in black and white.

as for forex.. it still kind of puzzles me.. prob coz there's juz so much on my mind that i can't concentrate on one specific thing..

grandma.. well, the metal stuff that was on her hand has been taken off and her bone is fusing well.. juz that she's being spoilt beyond belief.. to the extent that she gets fed... -_-" actually now that i think about it, i do miss her fussing over me.. it's juz different when she's not herself or when she's not around (i mean in hospital or something.. i really don't wanna think that far..)

anyway, all the events that have happened have strained my r/s a lil. but hey. i guess that's life rite? hopefully, i'll be able to find a balance between everything. hopefully, everything will turn out ok..

the craziest thing is that i'm so feeling the pinch from 2 of my ex-bfs.. they've both recently changed their relationship status to in a r/s.. and i'm quite sure that they juz started out. whereas for us, we've been dating for more than 3 mths.. and facebook still states we're both still single. or at least he is anyway. i've gotten that annoyed that i've juz removed the r/s status off my profile page.. heh..

i'm really happy for them. really.. i am.. wish i could be happy for myself too.. i want the world to know. den again, i've more or less been labelled a bitch anyway... well, i'm sure it doesn't matter that much.. maybe i'm juz throwing a immature, illogical little girl tantrum here.. strange thing is, recognition isn't supposed to be one of my stronger love gifts either.. haha.. strange.. oh well..