in school now..programming lesson... and it's damn cold.... stupid rain... but even without da rain, still cold larh... hahah..
well... life... it's been quite ok until yestedae... heh.. i suddenly realised that i had no cash left in my account... =X i think lately... i've been spending a lot on cabs... always late... always too tired to wake up... always everyone's little girl that can't go home late at nite... and wad do ya noe...
ALWAYS NO ONE PAYING ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS ASK BY THAT SOMEONE TO TAKE A CAB!!!
well.. basically, i like nite life... i think i wouldn't really mind taking a bus home... but no... it's always.. u got school tmr... or... it's so late already... pls take cab back...
heh... ok.. so that's about half of the cabbing thing... the other is that i had to bowl twice for the college league.. once at safra yishun... and once at marina south superbowl... and the cab fare from kim seng to yishun.... from yishun home... from home to marina... from marina home... and from home to kim seng... well... they ain't exactly that cheap ya noe... especially the marina one... heh...
so yeah.. now, i'm damn broke... i'm hoping i'll get my pocket money in advance.. but wad are da chances man.... even with my pay... also not really enuff... *sobz* and regarding my last post...
i think if i ask my mom for cash.. she'll juz ask me to quite my job instead... but seriously.... i love my job... i like my friends there... and da customers are nice too... aiyah.. why she like that?!?!?! won't this prove that da job ain't of any use?!
July 26, 2005
July 19, 2005
just got back from work awhile ago... well, kind of enjoyed work today even though i was really tired...
kind of dread coming home recently... it's not that it's boring or anything.. just that i'm being driven mad by my mom, grandma and sometimes, my aunt... argh.. just the thought of it's kind of frustrating... i have absolutely no idea how they can sit and listen to other people's family problems but not realise their own problems.. i find it totally strange.. but they don't seem to notice a thing... well... maybe grand is different from their other friends they talk to and all... but i think the same problem's still there... bottom line is that they take their elders for granted... ok.. so i'm guilty of that too.. but i try... i really try... sometimes, i think she can go a lil overboard... as for mom, i think she really treats me like a small kid... gosh... it's like... so what if i went to watch the korean show "wet dreams 2" with alpha.. it's a romantic comedy.. not porn.. why does she think so far?!?!?!?! argh... so annoying.. and even when i get home at 11 plus.. must call her so she can come down and wait for me.. that's really annoying..
sadly, home to me at the moment is only a place where i can come home and sleep.. and bathe kind of thing... worst part is that i have to act like nothing's wrong otherwise she'll come up with some plan to counter what i tell her...
the me right now....
well... i must say that if given the chance, i'd seriously stop tutoring my cousins... stop schooling.. oh.. and move out of my house.. maybe get a cosy little apartment or something (even though i really like my little niche at da moment)... think it's strange that all this is coming from me?!?! haha.. u better chane your mindset.. i'd like it if i could just focus on the things i like... that's what mom says she wants me to do too.. but she doesn't know what i want/like... hmm... so taking away all that... things i like would be bowling and work.. it's not that i'm addicted to money or something.. i just enjoy what i do... the others are more or less a chore to carry out..
anyway, can't do much at da moment.. i think.. all i can do is pray...
ok... shall end here.. this is getting way too long...
oh.. did i mention.. i think i screwed up my 2 papers...
kind of dread coming home recently... it's not that it's boring or anything.. just that i'm being driven mad by my mom, grandma and sometimes, my aunt... argh.. just the thought of it's kind of frustrating... i have absolutely no idea how they can sit and listen to other people's family problems but not realise their own problems.. i find it totally strange.. but they don't seem to notice a thing... well... maybe grand is different from their other friends they talk to and all... but i think the same problem's still there... bottom line is that they take their elders for granted... ok.. so i'm guilty of that too.. but i try... i really try... sometimes, i think she can go a lil overboard... as for mom, i think she really treats me like a small kid... gosh... it's like... so what if i went to watch the korean show "wet dreams 2" with alpha.. it's a romantic comedy.. not porn.. why does she think so far?!?!?!?! argh... so annoying.. and even when i get home at 11 plus.. must call her so she can come down and wait for me.. that's really annoying..
sadly, home to me at the moment is only a place where i can come home and sleep.. and bathe kind of thing... worst part is that i have to act like nothing's wrong otherwise she'll come up with some plan to counter what i tell her...
the me right now....
well... i must say that if given the chance, i'd seriously stop tutoring my cousins... stop schooling.. oh.. and move out of my house.. maybe get a cosy little apartment or something (even though i really like my little niche at da moment)... think it's strange that all this is coming from me?!?! haha.. u better chane your mindset.. i'd like it if i could just focus on the things i like... that's what mom says she wants me to do too.. but she doesn't know what i want/like... hmm... so taking away all that... things i like would be bowling and work.. it's not that i'm addicted to money or something.. i just enjoy what i do... the others are more or less a chore to carry out..
anyway, can't do much at da moment.. i think.. all i can do is pray...
ok... shall end here.. this is getting way too long...
oh.. did i mention.. i think i screwed up my 2 papers...
July 17, 2005
the pre common test nightmare..
i just hate it... there's a big big mental block in my head right now... programming's just become a total nightmare coz of the really horrid tutors i've been getting.. (if u tutors ever get to read this, i'm terribly sorry.. but i just have to let it off my chest..) thing is... i don't care if you're old.. or young or pretty... or not so pretty.. i'm not one who judges people on looks... but it kind of disgusts and turns me off when people can't speak proper english.. sometimes i really don't blame them.. coz they do try very hard.. but sometimes, it's just over done.. and not just to tutors.. but to everyone.. don't try to slang what you're saying when the tenses and pronounciation's wrong... one step at a time... i guess it's the same way i get so disgusted and turned off when people sing off pitch especially when in front of an audience... i guess it's been the way i was brought up... i've been trained for 7 yrs in the area of vocals so i think that's why i'm so particular about that kind of thing... maybe that's why i'm so particular about the way people speak too.. it's not that i've been for special classes... it's just conditioned in my head... i really can't help it...
shall end here and attempt to study..
i just hate it... there's a big big mental block in my head right now... programming's just become a total nightmare coz of the really horrid tutors i've been getting.. (if u tutors ever get to read this, i'm terribly sorry.. but i just have to let it off my chest..) thing is... i don't care if you're old.. or young or pretty... or not so pretty.. i'm not one who judges people on looks... but it kind of disgusts and turns me off when people can't speak proper english.. sometimes i really don't blame them.. coz they do try very hard.. but sometimes, it's just over done.. and not just to tutors.. but to everyone.. don't try to slang what you're saying when the tenses and pronounciation's wrong... one step at a time... i guess it's the same way i get so disgusted and turned off when people sing off pitch especially when in front of an audience... i guess it's been the way i was brought up... i've been trained for 7 yrs in the area of vocals so i think that's why i'm so particular about that kind of thing... maybe that's why i'm so particular about the way people speak too.. it's not that i've been for special classes... it's just conditioned in my head... i really can't help it...
shall end here and attempt to study..