hmm... it's amazing how your life can just suddenly crash so badly... and burn.. thing is.. the burning has kind of never stopped... as if my life wasn't hard enough to juggle all my activities, from work, to school, to bowling, to church and to other stuff like the people around me... friends and family and alpha... ok.. so this post is definately gonna be me drowning in my own self pity... yes.. drowning... but i can't take it anymore.. so juz let me whine k? if u don't wanna read, dont! not forcing u... heh...

ok.. this is it... 2 major bowling tournaments that need me to go all out of my comfort zone of doing my own work without disturbing other people... heh... now, need to do a lot of paper work.. and at the same time, work everything thru with my advisor... adding on to that.... it's almost all the same all the time.. busy busy.. no time to do anything I want... (note the capital i...)

the really morning's latest, or should i say the week's latest, spady doesn't seem keen on the way we're treating him.. therefore, the vet had to remove the catiter (or howeva it's spelt..) some tube thingy stuck in him so that we can put liquids in thru it... yar.. wadeva larh.. so yar... our only alternative left is to jab him directly now... everyday... well.. thing is, mom and i can't bring ourselves to jab him... and i can't do anything else... wad's left is to let him lead a good and comfortable life... i can't stand the fact that i juz have to sit there and watch it all happen without doing anything....... probably everybody's "cursing" has really come troo... everyone's saying that they wanna cook him in curry... or saying that we should juz leave him on the streets and let him suffer... or stuff like that... why i cant' i do anything??!?!?!?! argh...

other than that, my laptop got stolen in the canteen during lunch yesterday... all in a span of 5 minutes... that's like the saddest larh... now i gotta rely only on my brain to retrieve all the info i have in there for my club and my school work and all... and why me? why not someone else?! hope i remember all da details in my laptop... otherwise, i'm so dead... heh... anyway, laptop thing is a long story.. but as u can kind of tell, using my friend's lappie currently... as for me... well, i really got absolutely no idea how my mom or dad's gonna find the cash to buy a new one for me... insurance haf larh.. but how much can u claim!?!? police report, also have.. but how much can they do... NP student population 10 000 over... and it's like finding a needle in a haystack... so frustrating larh....

this is one time i definately can't take anymore shit... everyone's so stressed already.. and me being me, i'll still sit there and listen to any stories/complains... but i'd juz wish people would stop thinking only about themselves for once...

won't be bloggin anymore for awhile.... i think.... won't be online other... home pc got virus... yar... oh well...

but i still don't understand why me?! what on earth did i do to deserve all this?!?! argh....

bye...